Never be the same again

Whenever people said that the heart hurts when it is broken i always thought it to be a metaphor. But yesterday i realised it was not... have never before felt something like that..when you feel empty inside but this emptiness hurts badly and when you cant believe that just some time back everything was different.. i must thank God that when i get to know this i wasnt alone and had friends' support and love.
Could hardly sleep this night... i really cant describe what i am feeling now, may be because i cant find any words for something i never felt before... feel again like crying, but i guess i did cry enough for the last few hours... :) better keep smiling and pretend that everything goes as it should be.. Like wise people say: Dont cry because it is over, smile because it happened... :)
Yesterday i thought, really thought that i will be able to talk to you, and forget whatever had happened but now i am not that sure, may be i will need more time than expected..and what else i am afraid of is that it will never be the way it was before just because we are not the same anymore or at least i am not the same anymore :) and i guess i will never be the same again...

PS: for Abhay
Dont comment on this, dont say "thank you", and dont say "you are sorry" because there is nothing here you could be sorry about and nothing you should thank me for... you did what you should have done and i did what i should have done and now we will both try to be as happy as possible under these circumstances :)
And yessssss, dont wish me a wonderful life ahead :P - it sounds like you cut me off from your life completely, which i hope you didnt :)

PPS: for me ;) everything will be ok in the end, if its not ok, its not the end :))