For Better or For Worse

Life can be ironic at times. Haven't you wondered how a change in the life of someone close to you changes your life too. You wake up in the morning and it is your world, you know what you will do, what to expect, what will happen in a month, in a year. It is not like you are planning every minute in your life. It is just that there is some basic schedule your life runs after. And you are used to this schedule and you dont have to like or dislike it. You just know it is there.

But then you get to know that the life of someone you love has taken a completely a different direction and you are happy for them, you really are, but slowly you realise that it affects you more than you thought originally. It changes your life in a way you never expected.

Just few hours and life is not the same anymore. And you are confused there wondering what to do, where to go, what will happen now. And all the plans you had before are gone because now you have to start making another plans and you even dont know for how long they will be there, because maybe tomorrow you will wake up and something is changed again. As the only constant life can offer you is CHANGE.

And now for the first time in the last few months i feel helpless. Actually it is a complicated mixture of feelings.... anger, happiness, unawareness, frustration, fear, joy... Also because i wanted this change in their life. Almost every day i wished something like that would happen. And now it did and i dont know how to react.

And i know for sure that the change in this person's life is for good and it might make good changes in my life too but it also will affect in some way people i love, good or bad, it is not written yet, but it will..

I wonder how is it possible how in just few hours someone's life is changed completely and in another few hours it makes a complete mess out of my thoughts.

Maybe sometimes things have to change. And maybe sometimes they're for the better. Or for worse. Depends on us what we will write on this new blank page of our life.

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The Week

Another week has gone. I know it is Friday only but for those of us who made it a daily routine to go to the office every Mon - Fri  this week has just finished. Saturday and Sunday are like the other dimension where you live a different life. My favourite time of the week though is friday evening which i can not and never will be able to explain. But do we really need to explain each and everything, sometimes it is just better to accept things the way they are.

Less than 6 weeks to New Year, and again I wonder how quick the time goes. It flies and we seem only to notice it when it already is gone  wondering what have we been doing all the time. Sometimes I wonder ... Well I do wonder constantly because somehow I feel 
that only with ability to wonder we can survive in this world of ours. 

But back to the point...

So sometimes I wonder about how relative everything in life is. When we go through life day buy day nothing seems to change but when you take a break, and just look back you will see that everything is different.
And in the end of the day you are not the same as in the morning...
And in the end of the week you are not the same as in its beginning...
And in the end of the year you are a different person compared to the person you were before...

And here I am in the end of the week trying to realize how much different i have become, figuring out good and bad things that happened recently, proving the concept of having changed myself. And it turned out that things are not easy to be figured out, but i have tried and found few positive and negative issues that might have influenced me for a change. Look carefully at this "might" because they might have .... or might have not... Time will show. And we will see.


POSITIVE:

• I got my life back, you can wonder what should that mean but for me it is as clear as water. Working at the last project i could hardly get 4 hours of sleep, working 16 hours each day without weekends. And now it is such a great pleasure to come home and to do..................... NOTHING.. and when I say nothing i mean - watching movies, reading, blogging, chatting and and and ... just anything but not working!!
  
• I fell in love..... yes, yes and yessssssssss. Fell in love... with my own BLOG!! I know it is selfish but i just love it, brings a lot of positive emotions :)
  
• Got to know new people and I am really happy about it (and again thanks to BLOGging ;))
  
• Will learn to write Haiku (thanks to Sameera who tagged me for that, will do soon, Sweetie).. am really exciting about this ;)
  
• Got a call from my Orkut friend, was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo... no-no.. soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cool to talk to her... and when i think a little bit more now it was even sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cool!!! :D
  
• Got a call from my old University friend, we have not talked for ages and it was a pleasant surprise
  
• Russia is in EURO 2008.. Yahooooooooooooooooooo and again Yahoooooooooooooo!!
  OMG!! That is something I would never believe especially after the disaster in the match with Israel last Saturday... HUH!! For those who dont know what the hell is going on, what this silly girl is on about I will say FOOTBALL, my dear, only FOOTBALL which some people somehow prefer to call soccer. And now when all the chances seemed to be lost and hope almost has gone away suddenly England loses against Croatia... and here we go.. Russia will play in European Championship.. England will not... I can go on about football for ages so am forcng myself to sht up :D
  
• Talked to some dearest people which does not happen every week, so I was lucky here :)

NEGATIVE:

• I learned to hate....I dont know if it is good or bad, I only know it is new... Trying to cope with it, hope I will be successful because I hate to hate
  
• Yesterday was late to the office for 40 mins... took the wrong bus.. Tell me how can someone mistake 165 for 120 :D I can!!
  
• England is not in Euro 2008 **sob** Dont you wonder, please. Have been England's football team fan for the last 10 years with all their ups and downs (more downs I guess).. Now they are not in Euro 2008. But the choice here was either Russia or England... Oops...again i am talking about football... Why didnt you stop me??? ;)
  

Looking back at good or bad things that took place I dont see i have changed. But It is really funny how the daily routine makes us feel like everything is just the same but in the end you see that things are different and have no idea how it happened.. or did it happen??

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There are More Reasons for Giving or Pay It Forward

When you give, eventually you receive. We all know this truth. But do we follow? And do we Give without any second thought? Without expectations to receive something in return? What about an act of kindness just because of no reasons, not looking for any profit but just to make people feel good, just to make the world a little bit more beautiful place.
Showing CARE, LOVE, CONCERN when you really mean them.
When you really feel, when you really know it is for good.

WE always complain - We CAN NOT change the world for better. Who are we here? Small people living their lives and complaining how much cruel, unfair and sad everything around is? That's shallow-minded. By talking things over and complaining nothing can be and nothing will be changed, by accepting the fact that changing the life in the world for better is not in our hands we just give up. Talking is always easy, action is always difficult.
But since when we choose going for easy things??
We are human beings, we should be proud of things we do and not hide behind words. Words are good, but they are even better when they are set into action. A simple ACT of KINDNESS will not change the big World but it will change the small world of one person, one individual, one person just like YOU. Making it better, making it lovely, making it beautiful. And the ACTS of KINDNESS can be multiplied by your active participation in the PIF-Concept.



PIF or Pay It Forward is something i got to know about from Sameera's blog (read it here). And something that made me think and believe it is something we all might need. Especially in this world of globalization, when all the human values keep losing their importance. When we stopped writing long letters and send postcard because there is e-mail service and free e-cards. When we dont call but prefer sms. When we dont talk but chat. When life stops having human touch....

Here I am proud to present this Concept of PIF, which is spreading throughout the world giving care, love, support, understanding.

"I promise to send a small handmade gift to the first three people who reply to this post on my blog, specifying that they accept the PIF challenge. I do not know what the gift will be as of now, but it will be something personalized and I promise to have it delivered to them within one year from today, no matter what. Of course, as the name indicates, the condition is that all three of them must in turn pay it forward the same way, by putting up a post linking to this one on their blog and promising to send three others a handmade gift."

Here I am not asking you to take but asking you to give and reminding you that there are more reasons for giving than just to be thanked. :)




And even if you are not playing with us, you are still free to add comments!! :)

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Thinking

Today I was looking for something in my blog. I knew exactly where to find that poem i needed to refer to but somehow it took me more time because i stuck at some of my old posts rereading them and wondering if i still think the same way or changed.

We all change throughout life, getting new experiences, making new mistakes, being influenced by new people. And as a result the way we think changes and things that i said few months ago might differ from the ones i would say now.

But there are some things that will stay the same because they determine who we are and what we are worth. Weird thought but it is true in a way... I know i changed in the last year because things have happened that werent supposed to happen, people have gone that were supposed to stay, people have come who were not expected to be there but altogether everything that happened for a reason, it made me stronger, it made me wiser, it made me different.... and it even made me think different, i made me take the reality different, but in the most important matters like friendship, family, life approach it is still the same.

It is really weird... I changed but the way i think about life has not and the way i would react and comment on some points is still the same. And in fact i do not know what it means....
I only know that i like it.
Maybe it sounds weird but then i think that it might be the reflection of my sick (still not feeling well) mind.... :)

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