How to keep your relationship alive

Have you ever wondered how most of us dream about the same things? We might be different. We might argue a lot. We might fight and try to prove our point of view. But in the end of the day when we go to bed and are one on one with our thoughts and dreams and desires we want the only one thing - admit it or deny it - we want to be loved. And we want to be happy. And somehow one does not go without another.

At the late hour of the night some of us lie there awake dreaming of something they have never had but know exactly what it should be like. They have not yet had this feeling of comfort and calmness love gives you. They have not yet looked into the eyes of their soulmate and have not seen unlimited care and understanding there. They have not yet trusted someone unconditionally. And they have not yet met that one person who can read their mind, answer their questions before these questions are actually being asked. They have not met that person who can bring excitement, happiness, joy in their life. They have not met that special someone who can literally take their breath away just by being there. They have not. But they know they will. They hope, they dream and while they are lonely at this very moment they know very well that it is not going this way forever. Or so they hope.

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Love ramblings updated

Have you ever thought why people want to get their Ex back? And if they actually should? That's the topic which is covered in today's Love Ramblings on The Colors Magazine.

Here is a short abstract of it:

"I could understand why you want to get someone back. You might still love this person. No matter if you hurt them or they hurt you. You are ready to forgive and forget or you are ready to beg for forgiving. Is it worth it? Yes, the history knows the cases when people get married, divorce, then realize their mistakes and get married again. And live happily. Like all the fairytales promise. And you so want to believe that yours is the same case. That once you get back together things will be different and you won’t repeat same mistakes and you won’t ever part your ways again".

Want to read more, check it out here

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The Colors Magazine Launches Its 1st Issue

Ok, here I go again with shameless promotion :P
Today I proudly announce the launching of the very first pdf Issue of The Colors Magazine - The Relationships Guide. And you can download it absolutely FREE.
That is compilation of few articles which are known as Tuesday Love Ramblings here.

More aboutthe 1st Issue of The Colors Magazine you can read here.

Now some more news. The Colors Magazine (ya ya I know I am talking a lot about it) goes SOCIAL. If you don’t want to miss the latest news, now you can follow us on Twitter and Facebook.

And yes, before you leave the site don’t forget to browse through Love Ramblings and download The Colors Magazine:Relationships Guide. (506Kb)

Love you all,
See you around :)

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Does It Hurt?

People say love hurts.
Does it?
Loneliness hurts.
Losing someone hurts.
Being rejected hurts.
Indifference hurts.

But does love hurt?
Does it hurt when you have this one person… and no matter for how long you haven’t seen each other and for how long you haven’t talked, you do come back to them every time and fall for them all over again and you love them, whether its wrong or right. You just do…


Does love hurt?
When you had a tough day and come back home and have this someone to hold you. Just to hold you, not giving a hug, you know. But hold you tight and take all your worries away.

Does love hurt?
When you know you are not alone and can rely on someone? Can believe? Can trust?

People say love hurts, but maybe that’s the only thing in the world that actually does not.



PS: you guessed it right, just another Tuesday Love Ramblings :)


PPS: go to the post below to get your party invitation :D

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Just Another Story

Today I am proud to introduce one of my favourite bloggers as the guest for Tuesday Love Ramblings. Akki is a very gifted writer though she would never in her life admit it. And even though she couldnt believe i really want her to write something for my blog, i will repeat again and again, it was an honour for me when she agreed!!

She has chosen to write a story and i am proud to announce i have been there on all stages of writing this one, starting from Akki's "Awww... it has been half an hour and i have not written a word yet" and ending with "I got it, here we go!!" And it is my pleasure to introduce to you "Just Another Story" written by my good friend Akki. (Dont forget to check her blogs if you have not yet!!)

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"Manu! Remove the clothes from the lines. Its raining!"
She keeps the book away reluctantly and goes to do what her mother has told her to do. She doesn't like anyone bringing her back to reality from her beautiful world of books where each story has a happy ending.
Like every other girl, Manu has believed in her knight in a shining armour and unlike many other girls she has had her knight.

Raghav came her way one evening not very different from this one, when it was about to rain. The lovely smell of the earth getting wet. She was waiting for her friend to show up at the mall, when she saw him parking his car in the basement parking lot. He wasn't that strikingly handsome. But, there was an aura about him. Some indescribable charm that drew her. Those lovely dimples which showed up even without him making an effort to smile. She just stood there ogling him.

She never saw him and barely had the time to think of him later. He was just a fleeting vision or so she thought. The same friend of hers threw her 21st birthday bash. She made a lovely sight in her cream coloured salwar kameez and her waist length hair falling in slight curls. She smiled inwardly, thinking that her own 21st was a silent small affair celebrated at home.

In the far corner of the room, he smiled looking at her smile. He wondered what was it that made her smile like that. Was she thinking of a guy? He hoped not. It would be really bad if she already had someone. There was a weird heaviness as he weighed down that thought. From time to time, his gaze turned towards that vision in cream. He had to do something about it. Well, he was not the kind to believe in love at first sight or the second sight for that matter, but he wanted to take a chance. Something within him propelled him to go talk to her.

"Hi, I am Raghav.", he said. He was shocked to look at her wide-eyed look and wanted to check himself in a mirror if he had suddenly sprouted an extra head.
"Hello", Manu replied. By this time she had gathered her senses and composed that weird look that she must have given him. Those dimples! How could she have forgotten those!
"I am Ashima's brother's friend. We went to the same school.", he said. He wondered why she had given him that odd look in the first place.
"Ashima and I go to the same college now." She told him by way of introducing herself.

That was the first bit of conversation they had. A million were to follow that before they progressively fell in love with each other. In Raghav, Manu found a saviour. Someone she could rely on always. Someone who would take care of her after all these years of loneliness without anyone in her life.
In Manu, (Manasvitha being her full name which he loved) Raghav found a heart with love and care in abundance. Something that he had always searched for and it amazed him that he had found it with such ease.
As time passed by, they grew inseparable. Like every other couple they had a picture-perfect love story on the surface peppered by little fights now and then. It made life seem beautiful.

Like every other love story there was a snag awaiting them too. Born and raised in trite traditional customs both Raghav and Manu found themselves in a quagmire of sorts. Manu's mother who was widowed a couple of years back was against her marrying a boy whom she had not chosen. A devout believer in arranged marriages and her own strong opinions against love compelled her to refuse Manu the right to her happiness.
On the other hand, Raghav's parents were unhappy about the fact that Manu was not one among "them".
Caught between the metaphorical rock and a hard surface, Raghav and Manu only had each other for solace.

This brings us back to Manu's reluctance to leave her world of happy endings as her own ending was a blur of hot arguements with the words love, caste, marriage, refusals sprinkled here and there.
Raghav finds that he is helpless in convincing his parents about Manu and he gives up the fight. He tells Manu that he is leaving her as he is not able to stand the turmoil anymore. Like every other guy he takes an escape route from possible happiness.
Manu tries to get over the love. She wonders how she can ever finish the mammoth task of forgetting him.

Time rolls by. Manu and Raghav live in denial. In denying their feelings for each other. They refuse to marry anyone else their parents choose for them. So engrossed are they in their denial that they don't see time with its hands ticking steadily.

Just when you thought this story was running out of cliches and metaphors and weird twists in the tale, life dishes another one out to them!

At Ashima(ah, the same sweet friend!!)'s wedding both our sweet lovers are thrown together again.
Raghav mentally kicks himself for playing the escape artist.
Manu is embittered with Raghav's deeds.

Some love stories are worth giving a chance. Some, well, despite the ample chances given don't have a dream of growing bigger.
As for this story, there is no ending.
An ending is possible only if someone truly believes in it. Truly believes in their love enough to bear the consequences. Enough to suffer the hardships. Enough to look beyond the wonderful time spent and actually build a future. Enough to convince themselves and even the most stone hearted of hearts that they deserve happiness.

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I hope you enjoyed this story as much as i did :)

PS: just a small note, i will catch up with all your posts and comments, i promise. Just have some tough phase right now. Thank you all for having patience with me and reading this blog of mine even though i am not frequent at yours which will change once i find myself again. The previous post is still actual for me, am on the search which sees no end. Anyways, have a great day everyone!! :) :)

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First Love

Tuesday Love Ramblings have become 4 months old and i believe i have not missed even a single Tuesday during this time. And now it is time to reach a new level and i decided to give word to my blogger friends and let them say what they want to about love. Today i am honoured to welcome Solitaire as my guest blogger with her vision of Tuesday Love Ramblings.

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“How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?”

-Albert Einstein

Wow! Albert Einstein was in love too, just like you and me were, are, or will be.

The first glance, the first kiss, your first song dedication, your first dance together, your first meal, those butterflies in your stomach, those warm fuzzy feelings, those anticipatory moments, and the desire to never have it end; remember all that?

We often times complain that relationships can dull and boring after a while. Nothing seems as sweet as the first kiss. Sometimes, we mistake our first kiss ever to be the sweetest and anything and everything after that, seems not so romantic.

Have we lost it all after the first time? I don’t think so!!

Love does not keep count. Love is beautiful. For those in love today, I urge you to write a journal, make a scrap book, make your very own special love-book. Something like Lena’s Tuesday Love Ramblings. The only difference will be that that this will be your Daily Love Ramblings. A special moment, a special picture, a special quote, or just a special kiss, all captured in that book, to hold, and read, and revisit when life seems drab. Very soon, every moment spent with your darling partner will seem special, a moment to remember.

And for those not in love yet, hang in there. It happens to all of us. It happened to Einstein. Why not you? And when you do experience that first kiss, remember our ramblings, and capture it in your very own memorable way!

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Here it is to the first Guest Blogger Tuesday Love Ramblings so beautifully done by Solitaire

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Just A Click Away

People say the 21st century is a century of lonely people. It does not wonder anyone anymore because in the hectic world of today, trying to catch up with so many things makes us forget about the social nature of a human being.

We go to school striving for better marks to get a place in a better university. Once we are done we leave school and most of people there behind. Different paths...

We go to college struggling with assignments and again striving for good marks and appreciation to get a place in a better company. Once we are done we leave college and most of people there behind. Different paths...

We go each and every day to office struggling hard for a better place here, making a career, having no sleep, no food, no social contacts except the ones in the work place. We say sorry to the few of our school friends who are still there because we can not find time for them. Or they say sorry because they can not find time for us.

We are so much behind in all kinds of social activity because we are busy all the time trying to find our place in life.

Going out with friends? Err... when was it?

Party? Only every once in a while.

Shopping? Even not every weekend.

List is really long and quite the same for everyone.

No wonder that the most often performed activity in a free time (when you get a free time) is sleeping. But only because we wouldnt be able to survive without it.

And in the 21st century a new meaning is given to new communication means, internet in the first place. It happens more and more often that many of us consider as best friends people they have never met. People that live in the different parts of your own country and sometimes even outside of it. People that are just a click away.

They are there for you always, they respond to your mails quickly, they give advice when needed, they give you hugs and kisses that seem to be more real that the ones you miss to get from people you used to call friends for many years of your life. Their biggest advantage is that they are THERE. And you share with them things that you cant share with anyone else, you talk your heart out, you cry with them, laugh with them, you have fun, you have fights. Just everything you used to do with that friend who lives next door to you but now so busy that can not find time to give a call.

They are friends. And nobody wonders when you say you have never met your best friend in person. Nobody judges when you say you love them more than people around you. Nobody is amazed that you devote such amount of "free" and "not so free" time to them. Because almost everyone has such a friend and knows how it feels.

But friendship is not the only thing we seek as human beings. We long for love and romance. But how is it possible when you leave home at 8 am and get back at 9 pm with the only thought - just to get rest. And it is not like there is a huge queue of fans waiting at your door and wanting to propose you. Lucky are those who meet their soulmates at college or in the office. What about the rest of us?

And people have found the answer. Internet with the large number of social communities and dating services with instant messaging and what not gives you an opportunity to get to know people. And the one who yesterday was your best friend online is now more than just a friend. You are confused, worried, dont understand how it might have happened and what exactly you feel. Is it love? Infactuation? Something that should replace your own loneliness? But it feels damn real, doesnt it? You try to resist the feeling because the same people who said it is ok to have a best friend you have never met, now continue the sentence with .... "but you cant be in love with him/her if you never have seen them in real". And you keep thinking they have a point in this.

Where is the difference for you? Friendship.... and ... love... Two relationships so different and yet so similar. You dont know what to do, what to say, how to explain. But you are very much sure that what you feel is real. Then why to listen to what are others saying? I mean thats what you feel and even if it is a mistake, it is your mistake. What I truly believe that nothing is a mistake when it is about your feelings. If you feel it is real, then it is real because nobody except you knows how you feel and what is going on. They can guess, they can suppose but they can not know!

Why are we so quick to judge? When our friend tells us he/she is in love with someone they have never met why is our first reaction so negative? It scares them off, they are already confused about what they feel and now we add more to this. There are 6 billion people on this planet and why are you so sure that the one your friend fell for is not the right for him/her? Sometimes people wait for the perfect soulmate for the whole life and dont meet them. But here is your friend who might have got a chance and they are about to miss it because you dont believe in such things happen.

Thats all so much complicated and then it is very easy. Human feelings are difficult to be grasped, impossible to be explained. But if you feel thats the right thing to do, if you feel this warmth, this love, care.... why dont go for it? Maybe there wont be another chance? Or maybe this chance is exactly what you need for now :)

Because when so many are lonely it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone.

And that was another Tuesday Love Ramblings

PS: Inspiration to this post: my friend got to know his gf through internet. he is from Canada, she is from Brazil. After long months of communication through net he (despite all his friends and his family warning him it is not love and not real) moved out to Brazil. They got married and now are happy in love :)

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And I Do Mean It!

First of all, I am feeling better and thank you all for your lovely comments and get-well-wishes. Still not absolutely fine and not going to the office but fever decided it is tough to fight with me and left defeated. Special thanks to Zahid for all his prayers, potions and whatever else he sent which i have not received (might be due to some traffic jams).

I have a lot to catch up with in Bloggerville, starting with my own posts and comments and then reading yours, will definitely take some time. Have too many tags to complete and i will do them all I promise, just in my own sweet time. Missed TLR yesterday - but i guess nobody will mind if i do it today especially with February 14th just tomorrow. Some lovely-sweet post on love you can read here in my Good Day Blog. And now i will do the tag dedicated to Valentine's day (thanks to Sneha for this one - must be a funny torture) - 51 things that make me smile.... Let's go!!

1.Walking in the rain
2. Looking at stars
3. Watching the first snow falling

4. The road from my bus-station to my home (like 300m) - and not vice versa, somehow i smile only on my way back home
5. "8 Mile" Song by Eminem because it was the one in my cd-player few years ago when i came back home after 1 year in Germany. And i was sitting the same way in the bus looking out of window and thinking how much my life has changed...

6. When i first notice trees are becoming green after long winter... mainly in april
7. When i wake up and realize i can sleep for a couple of hours more because it is just 4 am
8. When receiving gifts (who does not? ;))
9. When giving gifts (again who does not? ;)

10. When i am choosing between chocolates and dieting and my best friend says "Hell with the diet, we live only once!" (i guess you got that my best friend is a girl :P )
11. Talking about the figure - when i find a skirt which i wore in high school and it still fits in... it makes me smile too ;)
12. No lines in the supermarket
13. Shopping with friends


14. Skating with Alex (my little niece, such a cutie ;)
15. When she hugs me and says "Lena, I love you!"
16. When I come home in the evening and she asks "And what you have for me?"
17. When she asks to say "Good night" in english and not in german as i do usually (lolz dont ask why in german)
18. When i see this little cutie playing by her own pretending she doesnt care nobody in this busy family can find time to play with her - makes me always run to her and give her a hug
19. When Alex asks questions like "Why you go to office? because you want to buy me more toys?" or "Lena, we need to find someone for you. Do you mind if i help?"

20. Favourite song on the radio
21. When they air "Charmed" for the uptenth time and i happen to come across it in the middle of my favourite episode
22. Chatting with friends
23. Giving a hug to someone special
24. Receiving a hug from friends when I need it (and when i dont ;)

25. Seeing someone special logging in just to say they love me
26. Wishing a great day to my friends when they are in the middle of busy hectic day, just like that, without intention to chat
27. Receiving e-mails
28. Writing e-mails

29. Knowing someone misses me
30. Knowing I have someone to miss
31. Knowing they know i miss them
32. Knowing that someone out there is thinking about me sometimes... well... ok ok, all the time :P

33. Holding hands with someone you care about (isnt it sweet? ;))
34. Having someone playing with my hair (I know i know, i have written it before.. so what? I have not changed ;))
35. Chocolate milkshake.... or well you know... strawberry... or cherry ;)
36. Sweet dreams.. i am such a DREAMER!!
37. Saying "I love you!"

38. Pillow fights with dearest friends
39. Calling my friends dumbos and them never accepting the fact!
40. Phone calls on my birthday - everyone is so sweet and say so many nice things which half of them dont mean but still ;)

41. Getting things done
42. Getting things done RIGHT
43. Knowing all my friends are fine
44. Hearing a joke which only my friends and I are able to understand
45. Seeing a cute pic
46. When one of my dreams finally comes true
47. When i look at old photographs and they take me back in time to the beautiful moments in the past

48. Pay Day ;)

49. Looking at myself in the mirror and seeing me happy
50. Knowing there are people whom i can make happy

51. Being in love

And there is a saying "If you smile without any reason, you really mean it!" Lastly I noticed I JUST smile :)

I am now tagging Div, Akki, Preeti and Sami! Enjoy, girls ;)
Keep smiling! :)

PS: Lovely post it has become so i still believe it belongs to TLR, I know you dont mind ;)

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Because I know....

In the crazy run of time
We forget what really matters.
On a way to a better life
We don’t manage to see when it happens
That we take people for granted,
And have lies with pain planted,
That we fail to show we care,
And see only illusion where
True feelings exist.

And I am deeply sorry
When for a moment I thought
You don’t care.
Because now I know you do.

That is to Tuesday Love Ramblings this time :)

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On The Side Of Angels

Time for another tag has come and well this time again tagged by Sameera and I am sure she is very much happy about it :D

And well to make it easier I am making it the part of Tuesday Love Ramblings as today is tuesday and as I want so ;) And well, it is also about love, love for music and love for life. And since it is the season of LOVE I decided it to be so!!

So here are the rules like Sameera got them from somewhere (stolen, nahh? :P ):

1. Put your music player on shuffle mode. - Shuffle mode?? Whats this? :D
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write the name of the song no matter what - no cheating ;) - huh!! just i thought about cheating and here it is!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Have I Told You Lately by Rod Stewart .......

lol ...ok, ok, love is all around, so i guess it is okay!!

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Watch Me Shine (Legally Blonde Soundrack)

I'm gonna show the world the strength in me
That sometimes they can't see
I'm about to switch my style
And soon things may get wild
But I will prove I can conquer anything
So from my head to toe I'm taking full control
I'll make it on my own
This time
(Better watch me shine)

That was exact!! Nice, I love this tag already ;)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Someone Like You by Van Morrisson

Someone like you makes it

All worth while

Someone like you keeps

Me satisfied. Someone exactly

Like you

ahem ahem.... i guess all has been said ;)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Amazed by Lonestar

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you

It just keeps getting better

I want to spend the rest of my life

With you by my side

Forever and ever

Every little thing that you do

Baby, I'm amazed by you

awwww.... is it how I feel?? hmm..... hmmmm... hmmmmmmmmm..... I gueess it is ;)

Just dont take me wrong. Love is all around, isnt it? ;)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
I Just Called To Say I Love You by Stewie Wonder

You seeeeeeeeeee...I just told you Love is all around :P

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I'll Stand By You by Pretenders

Oh, why you look so sad?

Tears are in your eyes

Come on and come to me now

Dont be ashamed to cry

Let me see you through

cause Ive seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you

You dont know what to do

Nothing you confess

Could make me love you less

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you

Wont let nobody hurt you

Ill stand by you

And I really do :)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Ain't No Mountain High Enough by Marvin Gaye and Tammi Terell

Gosh..i first heard this song in the movie "Stepmom", it is just great!!!

If you need me, call me

No matter where you are

No matter how far

Just call my name

I'll be there in a hurry

You don't have to worry

'Cause baby,

There ain't no mountain high enough

Ain't no valley low enough

Ain't no river wide enough

To keep me from getting to you

No comments....

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
I Swear by All for One

And I swear by the moon

And the stars in the sky I'll be there

I swear like the shadow that's by your side I'll be there

For better or worse

Till death do us part

I'll love you with every beat of my heart

And I swear

thats sure not about love for parents but who cares! that is what I think :)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Living to Love you by Sarah Connor

awww... this is a sweet one...and huh!! again about love :D

WHAT IS 2+2?
I Believe I Can Fly by R.Kelly

hurrrrrrrrr...Title said it all ...

DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Since You've been Gone by Nevergreen

Since you've been gone

baby you've been on my mind

since you've been gone, how can I go on

since you've been out of my life

baby since you've been gone

I guess that I should be alright

since you've been gone, how can I go on

since you've been out of my life

awwww... thats sad, so much sad almost made me cry again ....hey, what are you thinking about? ;) Just one of my closest friends is out of this world!! I mean the world of communication online. And being in other city me is missing him :(

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
A Moment Like This by Kelly Clarkson

What if I told you

It was all meant to be

Would you believe me,

Would you agree

It's almost that feelin'

That we've met before

you seee...i keep on loving this tag... music always knows better!!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
I Dont Wanna Miss a Thing by Aerosmith

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

That is my favourite! Of all times. And well .... I dont wanna miss a thing.....

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
One in a Million by Bosson

HUH!! Me is grown up.... or not really....or grown up... no, i am not... or am i? nooooooooo, I am not!! yessssss, I am! huh!! one in a million? i hope i am................................................ grown up! ;)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Everything I Do I Do It For You by Bryan Adams

hmm.... and everything this tag does to me is kind of right till now ;)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Reach by Caleigh Peters

Whatever you do, you’ll never be wrong
As long as you reach for it
When you reach for it, nothings to far
And its never to long, as long as you reach for it
You can dream on it, everywhere its there

They want me to be happy... thats obvious :)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
You Gotta Be Bad You Gotta Be Bold by Desree

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
Herald what your mother said
Readin' the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time

hmm.... might be might be...

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
A Girl Like You by Edwyn Collins

Haha..if they play this I will be happy ... in heaven..... or hell..... whatever!

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
I Dont Know by Erika

lol !! i was not cheating :D I swear!!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
So Yesterday by Hillary Duff

If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, what is left to do
How can you hang up if the line is dead
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on, I'm already gone
If the light is off then it isn't on
At least not today, not today, not today

hmm.... i am keeping my secrets well :)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
You're Beautiful by James Blunt

errr.... ignoring the story of the song... yes, my friends are beautiful!! :)

WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?
On The Side of Angels by LeAnn Rimes

We are on the side of ANGELS, arent we?

uffffffff... done with it!! ;)
Sometimes you listen to a song and you hear the words, but sometimes you listen to the song and know the story... sometimes it is a story of someone's life. So lets listen not to words but to stories :)

And I am tagging here Akila, Ameya, Anoop, Shalini and Shantini :)
Have fun!

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And I Know Its Gonna Be Alright :)

You will not believe but that's me again :D What a wonder, isnt it? For all of people who commented on my last post and who were very very nice I just thougt of letting you all know that I am doing much better :) And things are going better and life is not super great but GREAT! :) Thank you to all of you for caring and supportive coments :)

Now to post. Tuesday, so that must be time for another TUESDAY LOVE RAMBLINGS but....

Always there is a "but", nahh?? And this "But" are tags that are pending, and pending, and pending... So today i thought of combining tags with love ramblings. I am very very smart, dont you think? ;)

I was tagged like 2 weeks ago by JJ to write 7 (!) WEIRD facts about myself. I know there was a tag about 8 random facts of me which you can read here but well, this is not exactly the same as i am going to write about 7 WEIRD things I love :)

The things are posted in no particular order, just like they came to my mind. Rules are as following - me only posts these 7 weird facts and tags another 7 lucky people to do the same ;)

So, here I go!

1. I LOVE bookshops....

You better never leave me
alone in a book shop because
i can spend there hours. And it doesnt matter if it is a big shop or a small one, it will take me the same amountof time. When I am inside time stops existing. Life is absolutely different, world is not the same anymore. I guess I would even be able to live in there :D

2. I LOVE tea....

Ok, ok, not that exactly weird because many of us like it, but please no coffee, and only black tea with no milk and no sugar, NEVER. And it should be hot too!! Then i can drink it for breakfast, for lunch, for dinner (i mean instead of breakfast, lunch and dinner)


3. I LOVE being alone...

And, yes, I really do, be it the impossibility of being alone (there are always people around) or signs of my introverted (?) nature but there are moments (and they are often) where i dont want anyone around. Not that i feel uncomfortable with people, not like that, only that being alone is a little bit more comfortable


4. I LOVE mathematics...

Thats definitly my first love, my teachers were so much sad when i took a had decision of giving up studying this. But there is amazing beauty in it, dont you think?

1 x 8 + 1 = 9
12 x 8 + 2 = 98
123 x 8 + 3 = 987
1234 x 8 + 4 = 9876
12345 x 8 + 5 = 98765
123456 x 8 + 6 = 987654
1234567 x 8 + 7 = 9876543
12345678 x 8 + 8 = 98765432
123456789 x 8 + 9 = 987654321


1 x 9 + 2 = 11
12 x 9 + 3 = 111
123 x 9 + 4 = 1111
1234 x 9 + 5 = 11111
12345 x 9 + 6 = 111111
123456 x 9 + 7 = 1111111
1234567 x 9 + 8 = 11111111
12345678 x 9 + 9 = 111111111
123456789 x 9 +10= 1111111111


9 x 9 + 7 = 88
98 x 9 + 6 = 888
987 x 9 + 5 = 8888
9876 x 9 + 4 = 88888
98765 x 9 + 3 = 888888
987654 x 9 + 2 = 8888888
9876543 x 9 + 1 = 88888888
98765432 x 9 + 0 = 888888888

Brilliant, isn't it?'t it?
And look at this symmetry:


1 x 1 = 1
11 x 11 = 1211
111 x 111 = 12321
1111 x 1111 = 1234321
11111 x 11111 = 123454321
111111 x 111111 = 12345654321
1111111 x 1111111 = 1234567654321
11111111 x 11111111 = 123456787654321
111111111 x 111111111=123456789 87654321

It should be loved!!! :) :) :)

5. I LOVE "Charmed"...


I have watched all 8 seasons for many times, knowing them almost by heart but still keep on watching and watching. I have them in 3 languages - russian, german and english and i just cant stop myself from watching any time when i feel bad - it makes me feel secure somehow when i know that the evil will be destroyed completely and the power of love, care, life will be on top again!! :)

6. I LOVE mess....

Well, really, dont like things to take their places. You should take a look at my desk. I call it "creative chaos". My mom calls it a "mess". Most probably she is right but i love it the way it is.

I always know where i can find anything i need, but once someone makes some kind of order there I am not able to find anything at all..

7. I LOVE the question "really?"...

I just ask it like every second sentence and it doesnt mean i doubt anything you say, it only means that i love to ask this :P Once i promised to a friend that i will try not to ask it so frequently because he complained about me doubting his words. But then his answer was like "Dont change it. If you wont ask it, it will not be you". So i am still there keep asking "Really?"

Ok, done!! Yahooooooooooo!! Life has not been easy for me these last few weeks, things are complicated but blogging is one of few reasons why i hold on because i know after rain there is always sunshine and and everything is gonna be alright :)

Not tagging anyone, whoever feels he can/want/will do it, is very much welcome :) :)

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You Think You Know but You just Have no Idea

I have become slow and less regular in blogging, all due to increasing workload and stress at work. I promise to be back to my usual regularity once I get some little more release from all the assignments i have to deal with at the moment.

But this time i just cant not write anything as some crazy mad angel told me it is about time and i promised to write something today :D

Here I am with TUESDAY LOVE RAMBLINGS.

Maybe it will be harsh on someone but thats the way i think life is going.

Sometimes things happen that we would prefer to avoid.
Sometimes you leave someone or you are left.
Sometimes all you have left are the memories.
And sometimes you are just not able to let go....

It is easy to talk about it, when it doesnt concern you.
It is simple to give advice when it is not you crying all night long.
It always seems to you that you just know better.

You think you know but you just have no idea....

And it is hard to be there when your friend is suffering.
It is difficult to find the right words to make them feel better.
It is impossible to take their pain away when all you want is them being happy.

Because no words of yours will ever be able to cease the pain.
No actions of yours will make them forget, forgive and believe again.

You think you know but you just have no idea....

Dont assume your friends dont know what they have to do.
They know precisely.
They have been told it several times.
They told this to someone else several times.
But they just can not. Not easy... needs time, needs strength, needs understanding.

And you are helpless there, watching them destroy themselves, suffering, losing their identity in trying to save the little of their love left - sweetest memories.

You think you know but you just have no idea....

And all you can do is to be there for them, to give your care, love, support, understanding.
To make them believe that life can be better than this. And it is not easy when all your friend is able to see is darkness and uncertain future without someone they love....


You think you know but you just have no idea how much your friends need you at this time....

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We live... We love.... We hurt.... Part 2

I have 2 tags pending. Don’t you worry I remember about them and will write as soon as I get an idea what to write about ;)
Today I decided to start a new topic on my blog which was long due though somehow always postponed it. I guess I just didn’t have a clear idea of how it should be. Now I have a slight idea, but still it is an IDEA and I am going to hold on it.

TUESDAY LOVE RAMBLINGS

Once I have written this already and consider this as one of my best posts no matter what anyone else thinks. And since I am the laziest person you could ever meet and deadline is soooooooo soon, I decided I will just a little bit change it/or maybe not change at all and repost here. Smart, right? ;) Though lazy, of course!

I have a very good friend, in fact one of my best friends and he taught me a lot especially when I had my bad times. He means a lot to me and I know he feels the same way about me. And even though we hardly get a chance to talk to each other these days we remain in each other hearts and know who to lean on when dark times come again.
But friendship and love are not always and only about good times. Sometimes we manage to hurt people who are the most special persons in our life

Life is a weird thing, we have few relationships that are important to us and we fail to maintain them the way we would like - without PAIN, without TEARS, without DISAPPOINTMENTS. but we do continue them because in the end they are all (and here I repeat: ALL) what we have got.

People are going to hurt you every now and then, you are going to hurt them every now and then.. In the end everyone is getting hurt or hurts you, you are the one who decides who is worth this pain You can not live in illusionary world. Life is not only about “Positive”. It is impossible to avoid pain, impossible not to hurt, no matter how caring, wise, sweet we are. Because we are not angels, rather devils in relationships with dear for us people...

I don’t like being hurt by my friends, neither I like to hurt them. And most of all I hate the moments when someone has to say sorry but in any kind of relationships you can’t do without it, you do hurt people, you make up for this, you try to be perfect for the ones you like/love, it doesn’t work always but if we give up on someone we truly like and love, then what life it would be?? It would be different, but do we truly want life to be different?
In that chat with my friend some months ago I assured him that would never give up after the first mistake. Now I still think the same way.

How often we give up only because we think that people who love us cant hurt us? Yes, they can, and in fact they will hurt us more than anyone else! Just because they are close to us, EXACTLY because of it!! But then what?? Give up on them? That’s definitely the easiest way, but again if I would give up on everyone who hurt me I would have stayed alone with no people around. And so would be everyone.
In my life I used to give people second chances, third chances.... twentieth chances... sometimes I was proved wrong, but mostly it paid off... Friendship is all about hurting, being hurt, forgiving, forgetting, being hurt again, crying, laughing about this stupid matters, forgetting, hurting... and so on. It’s a circle, has no end... pure second chances. But from every wound there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says, Friendship survived. Which means it all was worth it :)

Because in the end friendship is the most precious gift, bringing smiles, happiness, comfort, understanding, care and love.And then you always know that despite everything when the moment comes they will be there to help you when you are down, and if they can't, they will lay down beside you and listen...


We live... We love... We hurt... Part 1 (not much difference, believe me, I proved myself lazy :)

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