Tuesday, October 31, 2006

the last one for today

I was just curious and have gone through the test... i really wondered that everything on it is true :0 - thats why i post it here

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.


I just liked it because in some way it is about me too :)

I still believe pigs can fly.
I don't have to see to believe;
They only fly when I'm not looking.



Love Dont Ask " Who Are You?"
Love Only Says " You Are Mine !"
Love Dont Ask " Where Are You From?"
Love Only Says " You Lives In My Heart !"
Love Dont Ask " what Do You Do?"
Love Only Says " You Make My Heart To Beat !"
Love Dont Ask " Why Are You Faraway?"
Love Only Says " You Are Always With Me !"
Love Dont Ask " Do You Love Me?"
Love Only Says " I Love You ! "
I asked God for happiness,and I found you.
I asked God for help,and he guided me to your door.
I asked God for reassurance,and I felt a wonderful sense of peacewhen I heard your voice.
I asked God for an escape from the darkness,and I saw the light in your eyes.
I asked God for someone to love,and you put your hand in mine.
I asked God for life,and I felt a spark sizzle through my veinswhen I kissed you.
I asked God for wealth,and I became rich in the splendor of your love.
I asked God for comfort,and you wrapped me up in your warmth.
I asked God for success,and I found the strength to accomplishanything when I'm with you.
I Thanked God for you,and every day I praythat you're in my life to stay

- these are quotes, they are not mine :)


first snow

We have first snow here :)
I just love the days with first snow, it is like a new world is born. Yesterday it was just snowing and today in the morning i found lots of snow everywhere. Of course it is not for long. But everytime i look at it i smile and feel great.. well there is sure another reason whay i feel great :P But snow... it is really beautiful outside today. i would like to share this feeling with everyone :))



I havent written anything for a while. I had some pretty busy weeks. Since i am working in the company for over a year now, they think i am ready to take over new duties... for the same money, of course... it is what the business is like in Russia. They get a young girl without any experience, pay her little money and then day by day she gets new duties and responsibilities but she never gets a salary raise even though her experience with work is bigger, more professional. I do like my job but sometimes i just hate when i have to do new things without being paid for it...
Ok, enough complaints, i promised not to be sad anymore and am going to keep my promise :)
Life is good. I am just back from my business trip to Moscow. I presented there my company on a very big exhibition devoted to 15 years of CIS. I had good time there, got a chance to visit my friends and had some peaceful timeevery evening without too many people i have at home. I do love my family but sometimes i just want to live alone :)
Ok, what else should i tell you. I had a nice weekend, went to a party on Sunday, met some old friends and new people, had a lot of fun there :))
Life is good so far and i am feeling really happy now.
Have a good day, everyone and take care :)


Sunday, October 22, 2006


Autumn is here and almost gone. yesterday night it was snowing but it it still too warm to let the snow stay until the morning .. it is about +3C every morning and gets a bit warmer throughout the day till +7-8C. It is a real october here, quite beautiful out there and i really pity that we dont have much time to enjoy it because i know that this period wont last for long.. winter is close .. and just to make this beautiful time period stay for a little bit i want to post some beautiful autumn pics here :)


Saturday, October 21, 2006

To every guy that walks on the outside of a sidewalk

To every guy that cooks dinner for her.
To every guy that regrets hurting her.
To every guy who knows which girl he wants.
To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to be able to see her for ten minutes.
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.
To every guy that actually listened.
To every guy that gave his heart and his mind
To every guy that would have given everything he was
To every guy that gave his heart only to have it shoved back in his face.
To every guy that prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

This one is for you...

Just found it in the net and wondered (!) ... are there any nice guys left? or i've got the last one? :P



Love is something you and I must have. We must have it because our spirit feeds upon it. We must have it because without it we become weak and faint.Without love our self-esteem weakens. Without it our courage fails. Without love we can no longer look confidently at the world. We turn inward and begin to feed upon our own personalities, and little by little we destroy it ourselves. With it we are creative. With it we march tirelessly. With it and with it alone, we are able to sacrifice for others.
- Chief Dan George -

I cant say i havent known this long before but i have never heard someone put the meaning of love into the best words. Love makes us strong and weak at the same time. Strong because we know that we are not alone and that we have someone truly special to support us all the time. Weak because from now on you are at the risk to trust your feelings, your love, your life to another person. And sometimes we fail because we trust ourselves to the wrong person...But still when you were lucky and successful to find a right person love makes you a better person :)

- Lena -


Friday, October 20, 2006

some random thoughts

i havent written anything for a while, not that i was very busy, just a bit not up to blogging :P
life is going good, though sometimes, i'm still having sleeping problems. Hope it will not last forever :P My mom says that it is because i am growing old - cant believe i am really old already to have sleeping problems ;)
i still think it was a good idea to start with teaching again - it brings lots of positive emotions, but sure not on fridays evenings.... when there are lots of traffic jams on my way home. i even cant think of what will expect me tonight when i will go home after the lesson... last week it took me about 2 hours instead of 30 minutes.. public transport is becoming awful here these days. you have to wait for ages for your bus, then you should be pretty powerful to get inside because you are not the only one who wants to go home after work :P and then you are stuck there for hours..
i had a good dream last night, it was soooo good that i didnt wantto wake up.. pity i cant remember what it was about.. i usually forget my good dreams the moment i open my eyes :P - so i cant say i have many memories of my dreams :(
but i do know that some of them are good, very good because i wake up in a fantastic mood and the world seems to be great on such days :)


Tuesday, October 17, 2006

A joke of the day

Why Men Can't Win

If you work too hard, there is never any time for her.
If you don't work enough, you're a good-for-nothing bum.

If she has a boring repetitive job with low pay, it's exploitation.
If you have a boring repetitive job with low pay, you should get off your ass and find something better.

If you get a promotion ahead of her, it's favoritism.
If she gets a job ahead of you, it's equal opportunity.

If you mention how nice she looks, it's sexual harassment.
If you keep quiet, it's male indifference.

If you cry, you're a wimp.
If you don't, you're insensitive.

If you make a decision without consulting her, you're a chauvinist pig, you bastard.
If she makes a decision without consulting you, she's a liberated woman.

If you ask her to do something she doesn't enjoy, that's domination.
If she asks you, it's a favor.

If you try to keep yourself in shape, you're vain.
If you don't, you're a slob.

If you buy her flowers, you're after something.
If you don't, you're not thoughtful.

If you're proud of your achievements, you're an egotist.
If you're not, you're not ambitious.

If she has a headache, she's tired.
If you have a headache, you don't love her anymore, and you must be sleeping around.


The song of the day

Just a good one :)

Artist: Pretenders
Song: I'll stand by you

Oh, why you look so sad? Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now.
Don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess could make me love you less
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
So, if you're mad get mad, don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads, don't know which path to
Let me come along, cause even if your wrong
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
Take me into your darkest hour, and I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you.
And when, when the night falls on you baby, you're feeling all
You won't be on your own, I'll stand by you. I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you. I'll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour and I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you.


Monday, October 16, 2006

just want all the people to have a really nice day :)


just some words...

... every woman would like to hear at least once ...

i may seldom tell u how special u are, i may not be able to reach u coz we're both busy, but inspite of all, u know u are someone i really miss and care about

I love you even more than when I started this sentence.

They learned me that one hours equals 60 minutes and that one minute equals 60 seconds, but they never told me that one second without you can last for ever!

Last night I sent an angel 2 watch over u while u were sleeping but it came back early! So I asked it why? It said that angels don't watch over other angels!

If i could give u 1 thing in life, i would give u the ability 2 c yourself through my eyes, only then would u realise how special u r 2 me!

It must have been a rainy day when you were born, but it wasn't really rain, the sky was crying because it lost its most beautifull angel...!

Let these words not only touch your eyes, let them travel through your soul, and let them rest in your heart as you rest in mine…I love you.

Each time I miss you a star falls from the sky, So if you look up at the night sky and find it dark with no stars, its all your fault, you made me miss you too much.

- from a forward mail


Friday, October 13, 2006

i'm soooooo glad ...

.... that this week is over :)
it is was an extremely stressful one.. i cant remember such a busy week for ages. may be also because i have never had to do so many tasks simultaneously. Since last week my boss decided i am ready for new duties and now i've got an entire project for myself.... only that the project is quite big - it has to do with All Russia Exhibiton Conference next week in Moscow and i have to control the participation of our association's members which are about 90 organization from all Russia. i have had so many calls this week that not i hate phones and cant make myself call the friends just because i would have preferred not to talk at all. Silence!!! it is what i need right now :)
i havent got much of alexandra this week. I've seen her only two times both for 20-30 minutes... really weird since we live in the same apartment.. i really miss her a lot... wonder what will i feel when i get my own children :)
and 3 evenings of 5 this week i went giving lessons. i'm glad because i really have god good students this time: a girl and a boy of 13-14 years old who really do what i ask them to do and who try to think and not only listen stupidly to me without getting what i want them to know.. i like the both of them :)
but i'm afraid it is too exhausting for me... i leave my home at 8 in the morning and come back at 9 in the evening - seems as if i get 13 hours every day except wednesday and sometimes tuesday... i wonder if i overestimated my possibilities... tonight i was soooooooo tired and had terrible headache and migraine... i even dont have time to eat properly which i still can not let myself do because after the surgery it still ends up in pains when i miss my meal or eat something from the forbidden list :(
ok, lets hope i will cope with all amount of work and will be able to deal with the pains too..
now i will go to bed and do what i really want and need now - sleep :)


finally done with this week

so happy this week is almost over.. it was way too busy here for the last 5 days - sometimes i even couldnt get a cup of tea.. and you can believe that i am really nothing without my cup of tea ;) i usually start being very annoying and dont know how people at all can stand me ...
today i will have to give the last lesson on this week.. good, because even when i like giving lessons it is really too exhausting to do this after a stressful day.
last night i had not only a decent sleep but also a very good one. first time for the last few weeks i had such a good sleep, without any interruptions, without waking up several times through the night, without having bad dreams - just a normal sleep... sounds really fantastic :)
i am still busy so will better turn back to work... may be will add something later :)


Wednesday, October 11, 2006


Russia - Estonia
Wow ... Russia still can win... though it is Estonia
(i dont want to hurt anyone but you sure do understand..)


some news

i am finally content with myself: i had only good days lately ... and good nights too.. no nightmares so far, though it is still pretty hard for me to get up early :P i can finally smile again, sometimes without any reasons and people around me think that i am crazy... which i sure am... (sometimes) but not these days.
the only bad news.. russian still cant play football .. even with Guus Hidding as a main coach.. they are just not born to win and to score :( i am not sure if they manage to qualify to EURO 2008... anyways i guess nobody expects them to be there but people still hope .. and i hope too
i havent seen alexandra for 3 days, only talked to her on phone (she sounds so funny :)) and today i finally got to see her and even had time to play with her. That was so good :)
i've got new duties and responsibilities at work, which is good on the one hand- work is not so boring anymore, but on the other hand - they are not going to pay me more for this ... of course it is not all about money but still.. money is important :P
ok, enough for now.. i just dont know what else to write about :))


Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Because you are my friend :)

1. When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.
2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
3. When you smile - I will know you finally got laid.
4. When you are scared - I'll make fun of you every chance I can.
5. When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.
6. When you are confused - I will use little words.
7. When you are sick - Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever s**t you have.
8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.This is my oath... I pledge it till the end.
"Why?" you may ask. Because you are my friend.

- again found in net, author unknown


15 things you probably never knew or thought about....

1. At least five people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least fifteen people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyones would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you recieved. Forget the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

- found in net, author unknown


Monday, October 09, 2006

is the world over? no it is not!

i thought my world was over but now i realize that thinking so was silly. My world just shook and then came back to its normal state. well... may be not a normal one but sure it still does exist in an absolutely new form. And i sure like it :)
i am like a newborn but a newborn with some knowledge and experience which makes it easier to get adjusted to this world and to avoid mistakes that have been done in a previous life...though this previous life was there just a few weeks ago..
it seems it is always like that...we change a lot of worlds while we are living... every time we think this world is going to crash and never be rebuilt... but we always get through and success in building new worlds :)
important is that we dont try to rebuild an old world and start on building a new one.
well... re-reading all this i realized that i have chosen the wrong job.... may be i should have become a builder or someone like that ;))
ok... all i know now that my world is not over and i love it :)



first time for the last couple of months i feel happy. i have almost forgot how it is to feel that way ... just being happy without any restrictions, smile without any visible reasons, sleep without having nightmares... no pains, no stress, only positive thinking - i really do enjoy being myself again. of course that experience made me change myself but we all change with the course of time but not always we realize that it is better so :)
even work is going better now when i feel so different ... i really do love it :)
life can be fantastic even when it also can be unfair to us. i dont know what will happen tomorrow or in a week or in a month but i really dont care, may be for the first time in my life ...
i like living today, i enjoy being here and now and what i really wish is - that tomorrow will never come ;)
ok-ok, just kidding
life is good, enjoy it and be happy :)))


hello world

i dont know which number this try of starting a blog has, but i hope i will stay here :)
i used to blog for the last 10 months on one pretty nice site but because of some personal reasons i decided to close that one and start a new one. i tried several blogsservices and have chosen 2 of them, so i will try to maintain the 2 blogs if it is possible, of course ;)
ok, thats enough for now, time to be back to work :)


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