Thursday, November 01, 2007

why can it not be just SIMPLE?

Feel really weird today. I can not say it is a feeling of laziness, just want to be left alone and not do anything at all.. Just close my eyes and being brought to some safe and empty place where no one could tell what and when to do.
Maybe it is just a feeling of being too tired - working without weekends right after the hospital dont make things easier but i really want things to be more simpler than they are. Sometimes i think everything is so much complicated that i do not know how to deal with it.
I try to manage things and everything seems to be alright but it is not as alright as i want them to be. It is just ok but ok is not really enough. Why cant everything be just SIMPLE. When you know what to do and how to do it, when you go straight your way and nobody stays in it making things more difficult than they are. Why do we have to depend on others. Why can i not just do things the way i want to... being diplomatic, trying to be nice and friendly to people who think they are allowed everything and anything! why cant i just close my eyes and stay away from all of them, going for a while to another universe - the one of my own. Why do we have all these responsibilities? And why can i not just take a small break.... It is really a weird feeling. It is a wish to be left alone but not a wish of loneliness, wanting time for yourself but not too far from anyone else. Being gone far away but not for long.... Dreaming your dreams but knowing they are just dreams. Living one day, one hour, one minute for yourself but not for someone else.
Wanting to cry but having no tears. Knowing that everything will be fine but still worrying about things... Life is weird, today is weird... and the only one wish i have at this very moment is impossible for right now because in the whole Universe (my Universe called my life) there is not a single place where i could be left alone.

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Sameera Thursday, November 01, 2007  

Oh sweetie...Hugsss.Love ya!

just a nice girl Thursday, November 01, 2007  

thank you, dear! that was exactly that i needed.. Love you too!! :)

Sameera Friday, November 02, 2007  

I gave more to your counter!Take them whenever you need :)

just a nice girl Friday, November 02, 2007  

thank you sweetie!!
i need it a lot these days as life has become too stressful!!
And already feeling better!! :)

rOhit Tuesday, November 06, 2007  

Hmmm... quite deep and touching.. hope these moments completely vanished :)

Nice blog.. quite liked it..:)

Happy writint :D

just a nice girl Tuesday, November 06, 2007  

yes, they did vanish, rohit!!
i usuallty have them temporary, not more than for 1 day :)
thanks for stopping by :)

Anonymous,  Tuesday, November 06, 2007  

Ahhh, take it lightly. dont think hard. this too shall passsss.

just a nice girl Tuesday, November 06, 2007  

thanks ashu, dear, i know this :)
and it already passed, just sometimes feel likee thinking too much :D

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