“When I grow up I want to be a little girl”

oK! Here I am again, hope nobody wonders that i was back so shortly, though can someone call truly shortly a couple of days... ? But they were short for me indeed like i guess for everyone else ... and guess why??? Ohh...yesssssssss, somebody guessed it exactly right, it was weekend!..

I will not go with my weekend update, can only add that i finally got my life back.. yahooooooooo... (it is not the ad of yahoo! but the only scream of joy, hope you understood ;)) ... so it was simple, sleep, reading, shopping, blogging (means reading blogs), chatting, and eating a lot!! Can someone tell me why we eat so much on the weekend?? Or am i the only one who does this?? Maybe we (read: I - but i want so much believe i am not alone :D ) just try to catch up on the weekend with everything we missed during the week?? Like sleep (which is obvious), having fun (which is obvious too), eating (huh!! should it really be??).

Well, enough blabbering about weekend, here I am to blog about something else.. ;) Whatever this ELSE is I do not know yet!! But let's us find out what it might be!

First I had a chat today with a friend which made me think how much
good it is to be silly sometimes. I am silly at times, doing silly things, asking silly questions, doing things just for fun without caring for the consequences. Of course it is not in serious matters but in small ones where I know there will not be any harm for anyone.

Sometimes we are just too much serious, too much grown up. I do hear regularly - "Grow Up, dont be silly, you are not a child anymore". Come on, people! You dont stop being children when you grow up. It is not what you look like that matters, it is what you feel like, what is inside of you.

And yes, i am not a child anymore, and though i never wanted to grow up (such a Peter Pan Syndrome) like all of us I did grow up. And I am a responsible serious adult person now. But maybe also because of this Peter Pan - thing I have saved a lot of a child inside me, which makes things complicated yet simple. People who believe in children inside them see the world with different eyes... they dream more, they believe in impossible and they achieve a lot only because they truly know it is never late to be what you might have been.

Sometimes I think that by growing up we lose an important part of ourselves, the part that helps us to understand what things truly mean. Once we are adults, we get our responsibilities, work stuff, sleepless nights, worries, lack of some important things in life.

That is a challenge to remain a child inside, being able for childish acts, still have a cute child's smile
when doing things that others might take for stupid and unreasonable.
I have been asked what does it give to me to be like that?? Thats the point an adult person would worry about... why should it give something to me?? It gives a lot to people around me. Maybe they will never admit it but they love it the way it goes, me being like a child at times, teasing them, kidding and doing stupid things and calling them
silly names.

We dont lose the ability to be children with times, we carry it all along
with us,
just some of us use this ability, others prefer to ignore it. But isnt ignoring who you are the pretendence? You can not stop being the way you are suppressing feelings you want to feel, and not doing things you wish to do.

If you want to sing loud in the shop but dont do it because you think it is irresponsible, is it the true YOU?? If you wish on stars but never admit it because of the fear people might think it is childish, is it the true YOU?? If you want something to do but try to avoid it because you dont know
how the society will react, then who you are??

The society consists of the same people who are too afraid to show their real selves, the ones who want to be but never will be, too afraid of being called silly, childish, whatever....
Why to be like the rest? If you feel the soul of a small child inside who wants to play, why dont you play? If you want fun, why dont you go for it? If you like to be naive, why shouldnt you?? Who are you?? A child? Or a Grown-Up? You should not bother.. You are both! Until you believe in different.

And if someone asked me what would i like to become in the future i would reply "When I grow up i want to be a little girl"....