That is something i have read once and something I follow up to the letter, hoping that people I love and care about really do feel they are important. Because if I fail I might lose them once and forever. And that is something i would never be able to bear because these people are my strength and my life.
But then sometimes I wonder if they feel the same way, if they do the same way, if the closeness we have has the same meaning for them. Because they happen to be too busy and i am constantly losing this feeling of being important. I have lots of understanding for each and everything, maybe the most understanding person you have ever come across but then in a weird way I also have my limits of patience (unbelievable, huh?). I know it is all about EXPECTATIONS and i know we have no rights to expect anything from the other person, any relationship is about giving and being happy about this, but if once you lose a feeling of being special and important, you lose the whole happiness of giving, isnt it?
I know I can not expect people to be the same way as I am, and I know the circumstances might not allow them always to show they are there for me, I respect and appreciate it but then this feeling of lack of something or someone is just too painful. There are things which have no need of being told, they must be felt, but sometimes just knowing something is not enough, you want to be told this again and again. And when you dont get to hear this it makes you feel lost and frustrated even though you know you have no reason for that.
Well, ok, has been a sad post, just trying to realise the reasons of frustration i have these days, but on a more cheerful note i am going to tell you a secret...... Big big secret, and then dont tell this to anyone else because..... well.... it is a SECRET!!!
So, the secret is..... curious, huh?! ok, ok, here i go - the secret is about me. I am so much like a mad person when i am sad and frustrated, so better not to leave bad comments, only nice are allowed. I love nice comments :D Or better like Divvi would say "Me loves nice comments" :P
And remember: Don't upset me! I'm running out of places to hide the bodies :P