just a song

Am still watching Charmed every single day...all the old episodes, just like it...one song caught my attention, it is really a good one, though a bit sad... not that i am sad, just felt like posting it here, so i could be back to it whenever i want to ;))
- Lena

Artist - Bush
Song - Letting the Cables Sleep

You in the dark
You in the pain
You on the run
Living a hell
Living your ghost
Living your end
Never seem to get in the place that I belong
Don't wanna lose the time
Lose the time to come

Whatever you say it's alright
Whatever you do it's all good
Whatever you say it's alright
Silence is not the way
We need to talk about it
If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way

You in the sea
On a decline
Breaking the waves
Watching the lights go down
Letting the cables sleep

Whatever you say it's alright
Whatever you do it's all good
Whatever you say it's alright
Silence is not the way
We need to talk about it
If heaven is on the way
We'll wrap the world around it
If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way
I'm a stranger in this town I'm a stranger in this town
If heaven is on the way I
f heaven is on the way
I'm a stranger in this town
I'm a stranger in this town

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Happy New Year 2007

Let us all gather round and cheer,

With a drink of wine or an ice cold beer

Perhaps you're like me and don't drink the swill,

Or your like my grandparents who live on pills.

Maybe this world seems harsh at times,

Or its just that most of us just like to whine.

I'd say that this is a great place to be,

It all depends on how we can see.

True we've had bad things in the past,

But we know in our hearts that these will not last.

If we try our best to be simple and pure,

There's nothing our hopes and dreams cannot cure.

So, I don't know the value this is worth,

But lets all try to be happy and heal Mother Earth!

Happy New Year 2007!

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all you need...

There are at this moment, 6,682,836,448 people in the world
Some are running scared
Some are coming home
Some tell lies to make it through the day
Others are just not facing the truth
Some are evil men at war with good
And some are good struggling with evil
6 billion people in the world
6 billion souls
And sometimes, all you need is one..

- from "One Tree Hill"

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I am a miracle ;)

I am not perfect. :(( (am i sad about it? :O)
I live on the planet Earth where humans live. (any doubts? :P)
Humans aren't perfect. (hehehe...thats for sure ;))
Never have been.
Never will be.
So I don't always wear the right clothes. (i even dont try :P)
And I don't always use the right shoes. (cant understand why most girls are so crazy about shoes? :O)
My memory sometimes (read constantly) fails me.
I don't look like a fashion model. (hm...but i look good ;))
I don't cook like a French chef. (but i do it good :P)
I don't always do what people expect of me. (they expect too much ...;))
I am human. (sure...)
I am imperfect. (should i be upset about it? :P)
But there is no one else like me in this whole wide world. (read www :P)
I am unique. (no comments ...)
I am a miracle. (any doubts? ;))

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year 2006

Dedicated to year 2006...

Its funny how you go through the year day by day but nothing changes, then when you look back everything’s different...

PS: and i like this difference :)

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life...

Life… What an amazing thing it is. Sometimes we get hurt by the ones closest to us. Friends, family, people we love most.. There will be troubling times when you wonder if it’s even worth it, and you’ll be praying to God to just get you through the day. But as usually everything turns out to be okay. And sometimes even better than you ever imagined possible. And somewhere in between it all, you realize what’s really important in life. :))

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

It’s not what you look like or what you have. But it’s the little things in life that make it all worth while.

Watching the sunset and the moon rise. Spending time doing crazy things with your friends. Random trips in the middle of the night. Enjoying the beautiful mountains. Drinking a nice cold glass of lemonade on a hot summer day, or a hot cup of cocoa on a cold winter day. Catching a snowflake on your tongue. Dancing in the rain. Taking bubble baths. Singing as if no one could hear you. Staying up all night with your best friend. Laughing. Falling in love. Conquering your biggest fear. Watching the waves crash into the sand. Spending a day shopping in Paris.

Life doesnt always give second chances, take the first one. Live it to the fullest with no regrets from yesterday. Step out on a limb and don’t be afraid. Do that one thing that you’ve spent your whole life dreaming about. Now is the time, because you never know what will happen tomorrow. And remember, that no one is perfect, so forgive easily and love endlessly. Spend your time enjoying life, rather than expressing your anger towards someone. Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment, and take from it everything you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Life happens only once, and you should make the most of it. So take too many pictures, give lots of hugs, always smile because it may be the only sunshine someone else see's today, love with all your heart, never take anything in life for granted, and live with absolute passion for each and every day, because life is the most precious and wonderful gift you will ever receive...

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life is amazing...i keep saying this ;))

Anya Peters was homeless and living in a car but she kept a blog...... it was picked up globally... read on http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/magazine/5029984.stm .. and the blog is here..http://wanderingego.blogspot.com/

Isnt it amazing how blogging can change one's life? ;)

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Happy New Year

I havent written anything for a while..not because of the lack of time but because i didnt feel like writing... life is the same - whats there to write about ;))..i even missed the very important date - 1 year of me blogging ;) cant believe i actually am doing it for soooooooooo long ;)
anyways i am officially on holidays for 10 (!) days ;) isnt it great? hm... whom am i asking? nobody reads that but i really dont care, write it for myself... then will print out and publish a book :P.... may be even someone will read it..hahaha.... are there really people interested in this??? :O sure there are ;) and i will have success, get a lot of money, move to india and live long and happy ;)).... What a great prospective!!!! ;))

Anyways... New Year is coming and thats amazing.. so glad this year is over (correction: almost over :P) - though it was a good one... because i finally am happy and content with myself... all i want now is that people around me are as happy as i am... lets all of us enjoy the happiness and peace.. Life is an amazing thing, dont waste your precious time on being sad or upset...it is not worth it :)) I love life as it is and it is good to me in return..this year i got some really precious present... the love and i guess it is the most beautiful thing i ever had in my life :)) that makes you feel a lot different, makes you think different, makes you believe and makes your life an important one..because now it is complete.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!!! MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE IN THE COMING YEAR!!!

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just about weekend ;))

saturday there was supposed to be a party, but my friend who had a bday got sick and the party was cancelled :(((((...hehehe..i am not sad at all..just now how many parties are there supposed to be on the holidays, since the whole country isnt working for 10 (!) days...;))
finally managed to call up all the uni friends for the party....we'll see how many of them will actually come ;)) - it is sooooooooooo difficult to make all of us come, everyone pretends to be very very busy... hehe...but as we all know hard work havent killed anybody yet..so lets hope most of them will be able to fill the party into their schedules ;)) havent seen some of people for ages.....let me think.... since spring i guess....GOD bless the person who invented cell phones to help us keep in touch :P.... but i guess if we hadnt had them we would meet more often ;)))

so what was i about?...yesssss....party was cancelled so i spent saturday evening at home staying online and watching movies too...

habent decided yet if i should kill Christian ...hm.. on the one hand he sent this file to me and now i have to pay hell of money for internet bill (good he did it on the weekend, if it were at work they would sure fire me for only these 346 mb .... and they would be right thousand times ;)) ... hehehe...just like he used to say Ak-47 would sure solve this little problem ;)))....but on the other hand...i liked the show he sent...though it had some disgusting scenes (for those interested i am talking about this show http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0773262/).. now he just has to send me another episodes of it ...hehehe..i guess he just wont be able to get rid of me ;))) after all we are going to make business together :P - ok, enough with joking...i guess i cant kill such a great friend, no matter how much i want to .... besides i still need the other episodes, selfish, am i not? :P.....yeah...i am ;)))

well... i watched Dexter yesterday, wanted to update blog too, but somehow was not up to it
and read a bit too... The Outsider...havent got yet what kind of book it is, besides since i also started Richard Bach's "The bridge across forever"..dont know which one should be done first.. anyways, not a problem at all...

SUNDAY
woke up pretty eary because of these stupid kittens.... why do they always want to eat soooooooo early in the morning???? i know why - because they dont want me to sleep :P haha.. anyways since i was up to shopping i had no choice but stand up ;))

shopping.... for gifts... for family..always a problem, never know what to buy them ;)) - it took me many many hours to figure it out :P but i succeeded ;)))

hm... watched some Charmed as well - just loooooooooooooove them so much ;)))

what else... almost nobody is online since it is Christmas for almost the whole world, and with those ones who are online i dont want to talk now...i guess will watch more of Charmed now ;)))

may be will be back later here.... :)))

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I think I'd miss you even if we'd never met

my favourite movie is "My best friend's wedding"... not because of Julia Roberts though .. more because of Rupert Everett and Dermot Mulroney... and even not because of them but because of the characters they play.... the same performance (the character) one can see in "The next best thing" with Everett and "The Wedding date" with Mulroney.... the movie i watched tonight for uptenth time ;)) Mulroney is just irresistible - the one every woman would like to have, someone you can always rely on, someone always there for you, someone you can count on...the best which may happen to you, someone who understands you better than you understand yourself... the one you are too afraid to lose... the one you just cant let go...i thought..something like that is impossible in real life, after all it is just a movie, a beautiful fairy tale for the ones who want to believe... but like someone said nothing is impossible in this life..."I think I'd miss you even if we'd never met." - you just miss someone like that until they show up into your life.... or they dont.. :))

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counting days

well... today we have the 20th of december, 11 days till the year 2007... dont know if it is good or bad.. dont want to celebrate.. all i need is sleeeeeeeeep.. as much as possible... today i started toc ount days till the holidays... hmm... should i count today? it just started but still ... dont want to count it... so let me do this... thursday, friday.... weekend doesnt count - no work (i hope ;)).. then monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday.... let me think - 7 DAYS... yahooooooooooo... only seven (!) days till holidays... and then 10 days of doing nothing, just am looking forward to it, need my rest.. i dont like myself the way i am now... am really overexhausted and stressed.. the only thing that makes me happy is thinking about how much i love you (read: you love me :P), love ;))... that really still keeps me alive... all i want now is rest, sleep, and being left in peace by most people... not by all though..
it is finally snowing, who could think that we wont have any snow till the 20th of december :O - thats amazing how the winter this year didnt want to start... but the first day it is below zero temperature and i got cold... seems like i have caught a flu or something :(( - have fever right now, took lots of meds and am doing no work again... i guess with this attitude i sure deserve some punishment :)) - and here it goes - NOBODY, i repeat NOBODY is online, everyone is doing their job and cant find time for a poor sick Lena :((( - life is sooooooooooooooo unfair ... well like abhay says there are lots of other things to do except chatting while you are doing nothing at work.. pity he forgot to tell me what these things are :P... ok, then i will have to find it out by myself...may be i even will succeed.. after all i am supposed never again to fail ;))

hmm... again i am writing a long entry, i really should stop it, after all nobody is reading all this crap... well not really nobody.. abhay does read it ;)... sometimes.... and even leaves comments... love, you should visit my blog a bit more often... make it a job for you .. like every friday night from 2 am till 2.30 am you are reading my blog :P - try to put it up into your schedule, ok? ;))

what else to say??? actually my mind isnt working properly :(( may be because of fever or because of too much chocolate i ate today... hmmm... can it be too much chocolate???? nooooooo... just impossible... though since it is on the forbidden list and i ate a lot today no wonder i am feeling unwell... anyways only my fault.. i should have said "NO" to chocolate :((( but i didnt , soooooooooooooo bad of me...

dont you have a feeling you are talking to yourself, Lena? i do.... i guess it is the sign that i should stop this here.. or i am going to be even more crazy that i already am :((... sorry wrong smiley :))) ... pity they are not colourful... strange that blogger.com doesnt have these colourful smileys ;))

once again ... only 7 working days !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :))))))))

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some more from collection

Can miles truly separate you from friends... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there?

Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up.

If I am pressed to say why I loved him, I feel it can only be explained by replying: "Because it was he; because it was me."

Love is like pi - natural, irrational, and very important.

How lucky am I to have known someone who was so hard to say goodbye to

I never know what the future brings But I know you are here with me now We’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with

Can’t find a reason why God gave you to me. But that’s not a question to be asked. May be question is how did God knew that I needed someone like you...

I knew I loved you when I realized that there was no one else I would rather laugh, cry and make memories with...

You know its love when he sees you, not what everyone else sees. When he can say you are beautiful even on your worst day

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.

Love is falling asleep dreaming of the one that makes you smile. Love is waking up smiling about the one you dream of.

"Love me without fear
Trust me without questioning
Need me without demanding
Want me without restrictions
Accept me without change
Desire me without inhibitions
For a love so free....
Will never fly away."

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the end of internet

http://www.funsilly.com/endofnet.html

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12 best things to say if you're caught sleeping at your desk

12.
"I'm in the management training program. I'm actually doing a Stress Level Elimination Exercise Plan (SLEEP) that I learned at the last mandatory seminar you made me attend."

11.
"I wasn't sleeping. I was trying to pick up my contact lens without hands."

10.
"They told me at the blood bank this might happen."

9.
"This is just a 15-minute power nap like they raved about in that time-management course you sent me to."

8.
"Whew! Guess I left the top off the White-Out. You probably got here just in time"

7.
"I wasn't sleeping. I was meditating on the mission statement and envisioning a new paradigm."

6.
"I was testing my keyboard for drool resistance."

5.
"I was doing a highly specific yoga exercise to relieve work-related stress. Are you discriminating against people who practice yoga?"

4.
"Why did you interrupt me? I had almost figured out a solution to our company's biggest problem."

3.
"The coffee machine is broken..."

2.
"Someone must've put decaf in the wrong pot..."


And the #1 best thing to say if you get caught sleeping at your desk:


1.
"... And, finally, I pray for the future of our company. Amen."



-- from a forward mail

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just an update

havent written anything for a while.. have crazy time at work... on friday everything will end and i will be happy to have a normal weekend without thinking what kind of stress the new day may bring.. they all at work think i am able to manage the amount of work which is too much even for 2 persons... i had quite an emotional outburst yesterday and they realized that if they dont stop acting that way they may lose me :((( hehe.. just being dramatic... anyways they reduced my work and now it is only the work that 2 people should do but there is still only me and nobody else... anyways it is better than before and i am thankful to that..
feel happy today, actually i feel happy always now... main khush hoon - hehehe.. i am learning hindi now, such a cool language without any logic... or at least i havent seen any logic yet :P but i like it ;))
I gave myself a word that i will go to bed at 10 pm tonight and it is 10:18 pm already.... thats bad ;) - so i better start keeping my word and go to bed :)

meethe sapne, world :)) - good night!!!

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the song of the day

Reamonn - Strong

- gosh... i just love these guys.. their music is really amazing.. havent had so much passion for a band for ages.. but these guys just made it..just cant stop listening to their songs ;))

I See The Fear In The Things We Don't Understand
I See The Fear In Another Blind Man
I Can't Hold Back This Fight That Stills Inside
I Can't Hold Back Who I Am

I Know You're Strong
I Know You Belong
I Know You Are Strong
My Beautiful One
I Know You're Strong
I Know You Belong
I Know You Are Strong
My Beautiful One

I Can't Turn Away From What I Believe
I Can't Destroy Or Deceive Oh No Oh No
I Know A Beauty In All That I Can See
I Can't Hold On But You Can't Release

I Know You're Strong
I Know You Belong
I Know You Are Strong
My Beautiful One
I Know You're Strong
I Know You Belong
I Know You Are Strong
My Beautiful One

Cause They Can't Hold You
And They Can't Hold Me
And They Can't Hold On
To What They Can't Believe
And They Can't Hold You
And They Can't Hold Me
And They won't understand'till a blindman see

I Know You're Strong
My Beautiful One
I Know You're Strong
I Know You Belong
I Know You're Strong
My Beautiful One
I Know You're Strong
I Know You Belong
I Know You're Strong
My Beautiful One

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Just some missing quotes ..

For someone i miss so much -

Love reckons hours for months, and days for years; and every little absence is an age.
As contraries are known by contraries, so is the delight of presence best known by the torments of absence.
The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected.
I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each other's dreams, we can play together all night.
"Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you."
"I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you."
"Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss."
"When I miss you, I don't have to go far ... I just have to look inside my heart because that's where I'll find you."
"I don't want you to know, so I try to be strong. I don't want you to think that without you, I can't go on. But that's how it is, and that's how it will be, because I love you, I need you, I miss you, and without you, there's just no me."

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tired

tired tired ttired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired :(((

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some random thoughts

Had a good and relaxing weekend... watched movies (good ones ), watched sport (finally, missed this a lot), updated webpage (hmmm.. it was needed for sure), slept, slept again (hahah.. thats not bad :P), talked online, more talks online (some of them were actually fun ;)), more sleep... havent eaten anything (thats bad :(( ),... played with alexandra, did i go out?.. dont remember... cant believe i wasnt outdoors... or was i.. at least not today ;) - not really good, but who cares; read (only a bit, but still)... Nobody called... thats bad... No sms.. even worse..:(( seems people are forgetting i exist... do i have to remind them? do i? dont know... may be give them the second chance?.. ops forgot... no second chances anymore, am trying not to be too nice :P...installed a new antivirus programm.. still have no idea which one is better.. so pity the registration key to my old now isnt valid anymore :((... here we go - back to Norton, not that i have anyting against Norton... but i think my Windows has...Or at least my Norton thinks that my Windowns is a virus...2 ways out - to get rid of Windows or to get rid of Norton... too bad i cant get rid of Windows... such a pity ;(... i guess i have to get rid of Norton, too bad i only updated it today... may be a second chance??? dont know... yeah.. remember about "no-second-chances-policy" but Norton isnt a person it is a program, cant hurt me, can hurt only Windows and the Windows can be always reinstalled...GOSH.. how come that from the weekend i came to such a topic as Computers??? ... back to weekend.. installed, updated, run.. no viruses (viri?) - thats good...what else? still cant remember if i eat anything? pity :( am not hungry though - strange... happy - will get tomorrow the 6 seasons of Charmed... sad - 2 more seasons are to be bought... more sad - have to pay for this 6 seasons tomorrow. ..Do i have money? have no idea now.. i should, but do i?.. no, i'm afraid not much money left, wont have any after i pay for 'Charmed'.. sad... but i will have 'Charmed'... that will cover the sadness...wanted to write an entry in one sentence.. just couldnt stop.. too much on my mind now :(( life is sooooooooooooo nervous these days, too much overloads, am not sure if i handle it, sometimes just want to scream out - 'leave me all in peace, i need my vacation' nobody hears... may be because i dont scream? :P.... cant remember the last year being so much stressful.. am tired to say everyone i am fine... well.. I AM FINE in a way but not that fine as i want to... but i got used to put up with whatever i have at the moment... and i dont complain because whatever i have it is great.. paradox - how one person may feel so contrary feelings at one and the same time.. seems i am a very paradoxal (my new invention - "paradoxal", patented 03.12.2006, 11:42 pm) one.. :P - All i want to say - i am happy now.. in stress, overloaded with work, tired, with sleep problems (Abhay, remember, you promised to guard - i rely on you ;)), with no money (gosh, so bad..but what do i need it for when i dont have time for shopping), with no time (i remember having said it already ;)) but i am happy... think positive, remember... no worries.. life is a good thing after all.. especially when you are so much in love as i am now :))
time to go to bed, midnight... 6 hours to sleep if i am lucky... hope i am.. i just dont have any choice but to be lucky ;)
Have a good night, world!!

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A joke of the day

Thanks to a friend for sharing :)


A man comes running to the doctor shouting & screaming
In pain "Please doctor you've got to help me. I've been stung by a
Bee."

DOCTOR: "Don't worry; I'll put some cream on it."
MAN: "You will never find that bee. It must be miles
Away by now."

DOCTOR: "No you don't understand! I'll put some cream
On the place you were stung."

MAN: "Oh! It happened in the garden where I was
Sitting under a tree"

DOCTOR (in anger): "No, no you IDIOT! I mean on which
Part of your body did that bee sting."

MAN (still screaming in pain): "On my finger! The bee
Stung me on my finger and it really hurts"
DOCTOR (banging his fist, abusing and shouting):
"Which one?"
MAN (innocently ): "How am I to know? All bees look the
Same to me."

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