Life can be ironic at times. Haven't you wondered how a change in the life of someone close to you changes your life too. You wake up in the morning and it is your world, you know what you will do, what to expect, what will happen in a month, in a year. It is not like you are planning every minute in your life. It is just that there is some basic schedule your life runs after. And you are used to this schedule and you dont have to like or dislike it. You just know it is there.
But then you get to know that the life of someone you love has taken a completely a different direction and you are happy for them, you really are, but slowly you realise that it affects you more than you thought originally. It changes your life in a way you never expected.
Just few hours and life is not the same anymore. And you are confused there wondering what to do, where to go, what will happen now. And all the plans you had before are gone because now you have to start making another plans and you even dont know for how long they will be there, because maybe tomorrow you will wake up and something is changed again. As the only constant life can offer you is CHANGE.
And now for the first time in the last few months i feel helpless. Actually it is a complicated mixture of feelings.... anger, happiness, unawareness, frustration, fear, joy... Also because i wanted this change in their life. Almost every day i wished something like that would happen. And now it did and i dont know how to react.
And i know for sure that the change in this person's life is for good and it might make good changes in my life too but it also will affect in some way people i love, good or bad, it is not written yet, but it will..
I wonder how is it possible how in just few hours someone's life is changed completely and in another few hours it makes a complete mess out of my thoughts.
Maybe sometimes things have to change. And maybe sometimes they're for the better. Or for worse. Depends on us what we will write on this new blank page of our life.