Thursday, April 09, 2009


Sometimes you need time to think. About your life, your decisions, your choices. You want to figure out what is good and what is bad. You desperately need to know where you stand. You feel like you are losing yourself in this crazy run for nothing. And all you want is just to find some colors in these drab realities of everyday life. You close your eyes to search for them. But when you open your eyes in the full conviction that yes, you finally got it, you know that trees are green and flowers are red, sky is blue and sun is so bright that it makes you happy, when you open your eyes being sure that everything will change now, it does not… all you see is the same dull reality and no colors.

That’s when you want to crawl into your bed, close your eyes and be left alone. Why? Because only then you can fight your own fears and insecurities. Only when the lights go off, you can let your thoughts out and fight with them in the silence of the night. Yes, you might be hurt, a little bruised, slightly broken, and most probably scared, but at the end of the day you still are there. And you still are fighting. And you will wake up the next morning and fight more. And you will get over it and find your colors. You will see that trees indeed are green and flowers are red. You will realize that the sky is blue and the sun is bright. And it will make you HAPPY.

Sometimes you really just want to be left alone. You want to shelter yourself in your bed, wrap yourself into the blanket and get a chance to stay one on one with your own thoughts.

But maybe sometimes we don’t have to think much… maybe sometimes we should just live, cross our fingers and hope for the best.

72 added colors:

Ankur Thursday, April 09, 2009  

when u r alone, u need a frnd...
and u need to discuss things...

being alone crying in the help doesnt help much.. only we listen to our thoughts and then we respond ot them... and then we sulk more...

i dont disagree that there are times when we want to be alone... but in the end, we want someone... somebody who listens to us and care for us... :)

Take Care girl... :)

Arv Thursday, April 09, 2009  

I cant agree more with you on this Lena...

Sometimes... thats the best way to be :)

The last lines keep ringing in my ears...

have a nice day mate... cheers...

Lena Thursday, April 09, 2009  

@ Ankur:

sometimes you need just some time off, for yourself :)

and yes, at the end of the day we all need someone to care for us.. but then again, sometimes it is not enough.. weird, isnt it?

Lena Thursday, April 09, 2009  

@ Arv:

dont let them ring for too long, these are just ramblings :P
you too take care :)

Anonymous,  Thursday, April 09, 2009  

Exactly - I agree.

ANWESA Thursday, April 09, 2009  

sometimes its only u who can understand urself..

WarmSunshine Thursday, April 09, 2009  

@ Ankur and Lena

yes you're right... we do need frnds in times like these... Lena's right too.... we need to find ourselves cz... there comes a point when people have guided you enough and it's time to choose your final course of action :)
So it goes hand in hand :)

Angel, i love you for this post. it's just what i needed right now... (shhh... been crying in the office :D )

Priya Joyce Thursday, April 09, 2009  

agreeed!! I have experienced that...
but not always...its only sometimes that i feel i need to be alone..

Preetilata【ツ】 Thursday, April 09, 2009  

i hv to agree with evry word here. isn't ? :p

such colorful post. n u know u r one bright color of my colorful life. u just don't let me cry alone at night rather u make me smile when i am in tears.

do i hv to tell u agn n agn that i love u? yes i do i do n will always do.


Hemanth Potluri Thursday, April 09, 2009  

first i start with the pic...its just awesome...and the post just comes from the soul with colors from the life...its full of colors...i just say some times left alone causes more trouble...we need a frnd to rub of the tears from the face and troubles from heart..

it was so nice to read the post lena..:)..


♥ÐÅyÐяєÅмє®♥ Thursday, April 09, 2009  

life has its own way...some time it is dull and sumtime it is all colors...

we just need to change accordingly....or may we don't need to...we change automatically :)

pisku Thursday, April 09, 2009  

Hey Lena,
I remember the song
"Allah ke bandeh hasde..
Jo bhi ho kal phir aayega

Hoke apne par hi to usna tha udna seeka,
Gham ko apne saath hi leele
dard be tere kaam aayega"

I'm sure the colours will return soon.

Anonymous,  Thursday, April 09, 2009  

yes...sometimes only loneliness can heal...

damsel in distress Thursday, April 09, 2009  

you commented on my blog saying that i wrote abt how u its my turn to say that..

its hard,isnt it, when you are left alone, alone to sort out the problems..? sigh!!!

ur trademark post i must say..something that speaks out my mind, something that makes us all think..nice one!!!

u understand hindi? just asked, coz saw one comment in hindi.

oo7 Thursday, April 09, 2009  

whenever i feel alone i take 2 sips of Vodka and sleep.

Suresh Kumar Thursday, April 09, 2009  

Instead of looking for answers outside, sometimes we need to dig deep into our soul and find out the answers..

I think being left to oneself and loneliness are quite different terms. We sometimes need to be left to our self.

♪♪HARINI♪♪ Thursday, April 09, 2009  

that's exactly how I'm feeling... i wish i could escape if not to another world, at least to another country... just want to run away from the society but not from myself..i love myself.. i feel my self always makes sense and is impartial, but no one understands.. so i fight and keep fighting till i start regretting it... there are so many colours waiting to be set free inside me..
but sometimes i think all this is a part of life and i just have to let it pass...

Kartz Thursday, April 09, 2009  

Well, that's *life*, isn't it? The ship isn't always aided by fair weather.

Eyeball the storm. Brace yourself for the rough weather. There is a lull before *and* after a storm... Signifying the crests and troughs of life.

Keep the faith.

Peace. Take care. Be well.

Ankur Thursday, April 09, 2009  

but we need someone...and not sometimes.. if u take it literally then we need someone most of the times... atleast i do!! :)

and yea... sometimes is not enough... so i said most of the time!! ;)

Ankur Thursday, April 09, 2009  


yep... but even when u decide the course of action, u need to hold someones hand to feel secure... isnt!! :)

and crying in office... :)))

ŋεεяѕ Thursday, April 09, 2009  

my state of mind!!

word to word!!
ure amazing :)

Nidzzi Thursday, April 09, 2009  

i like to be left alone cuddle myself in bed and sleep when i m too angry or depressed. it actually helps me to cool down. when things are not right its the bad phase and its bad to be alive in bad phase.

yamini meduri Thursday, April 09, 2009

my 150th post...a guest post..!!!

sawan Thursday, April 09, 2009  

i feel like talking to you :( miss yaa!

Aniket Friday, April 10, 2009  

Beautiful as always Lena...

Kinda reminded me of 'November Rain'... "Everybody needs some time...on their own"

Vasanthan Friday, April 10, 2009  

The picture was the most colorful picture i have eva seen. a good post as well.

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Anwesa:

yup, absolutely true, sometimes only you can figure out what exactly is going wrong.

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Mehreen:

crying in office? :| who dared to make you cry, sweets?

Hope you are feeling better now :)


Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ PJ:

yup, thats what i meant - sometimes we need to take time off :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ preetu:

its the same for me, chookcha :D
love you too, sweets :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Hemanth:

the pic is not mine, cant even pay credits because found it through google search.

yup, we need the friends too.. but i rather mean even when you have friends you can turn to, you still need some time to realize what is happening with you.. then you surely can discuss things with those you trust :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Sourish:

i guess sometimes its good to force ourselves to fit into life situation.. we got to learn to adjust :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ pisku:

the colors are always there :)

i do understand only a bit of hindi, hence dont know the song :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Meera:

i would say rather - solitude.. loneliness might rather make things worse..

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ damsel:

yup.. thats true, i wrote what i was feeling at that moment.. you know the point here is not that you are left alone, but rather that you want to be alone at times.

and... i have a trademark post? :P

and i understand only a little bit of hindi .. really a tiny tiny bit :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ rainboy:

lol i cant follow this advice :D

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ suresh:

yes, thats exactly what i meant to say, sometimes we need to stay one on one with yourself and figure things and feelings out :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ harini:

even when you think you have to let it pass, i guess you will still keep on fighting, dont you? :)

life is all about that only - falling and raising, fighting even when we think it will make no sense.. because in the end it does make sense :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ kartz:

why do you have to use such smart words? :|

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Ankur:

we need someone always i guess but SOMETIMES we really want to be left alone, even if we have this someone.. we need time for ourselves :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Ankur to Mehreen:

ummm.... her crying was not my fault, you do know this, right? :P

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Neers:

:) :)
good to know, you still are reading me, girl..
thanks :)

and take good care :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Nidhi:

thats how i deal with such phases too :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ yamini:

congratulations on 150th post! :)

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Anil:

its not like you cant, right?

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Aniket:

thank you :)

and i love this song.. now when you mentioned it, guess, yes, this song is apt here too

Lena Friday, April 10, 2009  

@ Vasanthan:

i liked the pic too.. unfortunately dont know who is the author :)

Hemanth Potluri Friday, April 10, 2009  

were are u totally forgot my blog :P...


Dhanya Friday, April 10, 2009  

You are right. When the colours of life just fade away it's a terrible feeling. Unimaginable!

Hope yours never go away though!

Do keep blogging.


Indrajit Saturday, April 11, 2009  

As usual splendid....

I thot someone speaking on my behalf.. :)


akanksha Saturday, April 11, 2009  

That was amazing! Colours can make a huge lot of a difference for sure!

Gr8 post!

Kartz Sunday, April 12, 2009  

Why? 'Cos I am sure such smartness will rub off on you. U need it. ;)

Easter greetings to you and yours, buddy.

Tc. Keep the faith.

Peace. Be well.

Pacifier Returns Sunday, April 12, 2009  

So wats the color of your life

Smiles :)

Andy Sunday, April 12, 2009  

A lot of maybes. A lot of point of views.
U r rite...and this happens when ur somehow in deep shit. That's when u need someone.
It's jus a phase anyways, inni??

After a whole lotta big dark tunnel..that IS light. And unfortunately U don't see that light unless u believe.

Nice post. Expect me back sometime.

Life Sunday, April 12, 2009  

Lena i totaly agree with you. Some times need to be alone and think we are running for what????

We have only one life and we can't efford to losse this way.....

I often try to know wha i am doing and where i am headed to??...\

I can only say one thing lena, u gave words to my thoughts......

I liked this post very very much lena...well written...
We need think once again what for we are running???

Take Care

Lena Monday, April 13, 2009  

@ Hemanth:
will catch up soon :)

Lena Monday, April 13, 2009  

@ Dhanya:

thanks for the wish :)
i am sure they will not!

Lena Monday, April 13, 2009  

@ Indrajit:

thats somethign we all can relate to, right? :)

Lena Monday, April 13, 2009  

@ akanksha:

thanks :)
yup, colors give a whole new meaning to life altogether :)

Lena Monday, April 13, 2009  

@ Kartz:

thanks a lot, but the brilliant mind of mine does not need more smartness :D

Lena Monday, April 13, 2009  

@ Prashant:

its rainbow :)

Lena Monday, April 13, 2009  

@ Andy:

yup, its always just a phase... always fades away and always comes back ... and we always find light to fight with it, dont we?

yup, am expecting you back :)
welcome here!

Lena Monday, April 13, 2009  

@ Vikas:

yes, once in a while we got to stop and think what are we running for... and once in a while we got to stop thinking and just run :)

you take care :)

Ankur Monday, April 13, 2009  

yep... but i hope we dont need to feel alone... coz we feel it when we arent alright... :)

take care sweetie..
lots of love


P.S. count it in the context of coming tuesday too... :)

♪♪HARINI♪♪ Wednesday, April 15, 2009  

hmm that makes a lot of sense.. :P

Anna Thursday, April 16, 2009  

Oh Lena you don't know how much I love going to be and have my own space to dream about, to think about, to rest lol. Anna :)

Lena Friday, April 17, 2009  

@ Ankur:

to be alone and to feel alone - 2 different things :P

and i do take care :D

Lena Friday, April 17, 2009  

@ Harini:

i am glad it does :)

Lena Friday, April 17, 2009  

@ Anna:

but i guess it is tough now with little Matthew being around :P

Gagan Sunday, April 19, 2009  

Beautifully crafted, as always :)
I just wonder how I'm able to relate myself with every post of yours.
Keep writing... :)

PS: I'm following your blog now :D

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