just a thought...
Just before i go back to work ... dont you think the day has less than 24 hours now??? :O
Because i dont manage to do all the things i plan in one day :O ... or may be i just plan too much :O
Monday, March 26, 2007
Mails
It is a wonderful feeling to receive mails... especially when you log in in the morning to your email account and find there 15 mails... and who the hell cares that half of them are from Neel who decided to get rid of all the spam he has in his inbox by sending it to me :P ... i dont have all the 380 mails of him yet ... hehehe .. but who the hell cares .. ;)
all the mails are the sign that there are still people who love and care .. and what if the mails consists of 2 lines only .. like "have a good night" or just "good morning" .. thats only another way of showing that people do care :)
Actually thats the only reason i come online before work every day - to check up my inbox, because all these mails literally make my day :) and after that i feel sooooooooooooo amazing that no matter what can come my way i will manage it ;)
Anyways... gotta go back to work now, will post later ... one of the mails i got in the morning - a very cute one which made me smile :)
Have an amazing day everyone!!! :)
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
i am still here!!!
Havent written anything for a while ... not because i didnt want to just because was not able to organise my time so that i also could write here ... work is getting crazy day by day, somehow feel though that i need vacation :O grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ... started to appreciate friendship more... thats amazing how accidental it can be that you come across some people and they turn out to be the best friends you have ever had :)) which is absolutely not expected ;)
Life is wonderful, everything is great, got some health problems but happily overcame them ... there is nothing to complain about .. learned how to be more strong that i am already .. with support of loving people of course :)
Ok, that was just to show that i am still alive and happy, more happy than ever in the last few months :))
Friday, March 09, 2007
again i am here :P
Thats the last for today... again about life... believe me it is worth it.. as life is becoming wonderful as i start smiling again and i am soooooooooooo thankful to it :)
At the end of the day when i crawl into bed and all the lights go out my thoughts can finally rise to the surface. Ya I'm a little bruised, slightly broken, and permanently scarred but i'm still here aren't I? I'm still fighting, I'm still waking up everyday to go through it all over again. This life may be hard as hell but it's still a gift and i'm going to live every moment of it :))
So..thats how it is...life is going on :) and i am going to go with it ;)
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Monday, March 05, 2007
Quote of the day
Just watched "The Holiday" and had to listen to what Kate Winslet said twice... and cried too..
It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade...
Thursday, March 01, 2007
happiness
I will be happy!!! No matter what, no matter who... Life is going on, and yes, i want you back to me, but i cant make you love me and i cant make you be with me. But i can be happy when you are happy even if you are not with me :)
Past is past, it cant be forgotten, especially when it is not the past yet... at least not for me.
Everyone says - move on, forget, get over it... But it is not that i cant ...it is that i dont want to...
It is not that i like to be hurt over and over again... and what else prevents me from moving - are things that i dont understand... i do want to understand them!!!! may be then it will be easier to move on :)
I am sick, took a leave, had a doctor visit today...the stupid doctors want me back to the hospital, they suppose another surgery is needed :O ... i refuse, my family insists...too much stress these days.... bad dreams..not really nightmares, just bad ones... How can someone be happy when everything is so bad? :O
Anyways, keep smiling for me, please :) then may be it will be easier for me to keep smiling too :)
Have a good night, everyone :)
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