Wish I Were Weak..

It's amazing how we always tend to be mistaken in people. Nothing in life is as it seems. From all the dozens of people you come across in life, there will be hardly a few who are honest, loyal and true to you in all kind of situations. And even these few might crash your belief in friendship, mutual understanding and caring.

Imagine when you are friends with someone for long, know each other's good and bad sides, believe that nothing would ever change. And then suddenly everything does change. You don't even notice, don't understand and more than that... you don't believe it is happening to you.
One day you were the best friends and the other you are ignored, abandoned, left alone. The funniest thing is when you confront them, they would tell you nothing has changed, they are the same and they care the same way. And if they seemed to be away from your life, then that's for your own good, to make you stronger...

I for one don't want to get stronger this way. But despite this I am becoming stronger thanks to them, stronger in a sense that I am getting used to their ignorance, their permanent not-being-there-when-I-need-them.

That is not "becoming stronger" I wished for, that is not how I have seen our friendship, that was not supposed to happen with me. But it did.

Funny... when I ask questions I get smart answers...

The answers that are supposed to explain everything...
The answers that should make me feel better...
The answers which I don't want... because they are a lie.

It is easier to believe some things because they are what we want to hear. It takes a lot of courage and strength to look beyond those words and see the truth. The truth spoken by actions. I don't ask people to tell me they love me and care.

I don't believe words anymore.

I have got strength to accept the truth of people's actions.
The strength I have not asked for.
The strength I don't want to.
The strength I have to live with now.
Every day of my life.

Wish I were weak...


PS: did not think i would write here again after The Colors Magazine was launched ... but things happen and I feel better after I write down what I feel :)

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Love ramblings updated

Have you ever thought why people want to get their Ex back? And if they actually should? That's the topic which is covered in today's Love Ramblings on The Colors Magazine.

Here is a short abstract of it:

"I could understand why you want to get someone back. You might still love this person. No matter if you hurt them or they hurt you. You are ready to forgive and forget or you are ready to beg for forgiving. Is it worth it? Yes, the history knows the cases when people get married, divorce, then realize their mistakes and get married again. And live happily. Like all the fairytales promise. And you so want to believe that yours is the same case. That once you get back together things will be different and you won’t repeat same mistakes and you won’t ever part your ways again".

Want to read more, check it out here

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The Colors Magazine Launches Its 1st Issue

Ok, here I go again with shameless promotion :P
Today I proudly announce the launching of the very first pdf Issue of The Colors Magazine - The Relationships Guide. And you can download it absolutely FREE.
That is compilation of few articles which are known as Tuesday Love Ramblings here.

More aboutthe 1st Issue of The Colors Magazine you can read here.

Now some more news. The Colors Magazine (ya ya I know I am talking a lot about it) goes SOCIAL. If you don’t want to miss the latest news, now you can follow us on Twitter and Facebook.

And yes, before you leave the site don’t forget to browse through Love Ramblings and download The Colors Magazine:Relationships Guide. (506Kb)

Love you all,
See you around :)

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