Of Crazy Girls

My birthday is on 8th March. Not that I am asking for the gifts, 2 months later, no, I’m not, so you can relax now. It is just my way to start a story about something or maybe SOMEONE special. So, let me continue.

On the 7th March, in the late evening, I was sitting in my room with my laptop, online, chatting with a couple of friends. At 9:30 pm exactly I got a call. More than that it was a call from one of friends I was chatting with. Surprised I did pick up and the first thing I heard was a happy birthday song. It was sweet and cute but a little bit early. Though that friend of mine didn’t actually bother about THAT fact. She said since it was midnight in India it was officially my birthday. I didn’t argue. Nobody would. Especially after hearing the song. We talked for quite some time, can’t actually imagine how much did that call cost her, but for me it was the most precious gift.

The first call on your birthday (which technically still was not my birthday) is always special.

The girl is crazy, I tell you. She is no doubts sweet and cute and lovely... and god, she has such a sweet voice. But she is crazy. She didn’t want my cake. In fact I was ordered to eat all the cake alone because she wanted me to be fat. And she was laughing all the time, which was so contagious that it brought me into a bright mood for the next 24 hours.

She is an angel, I mentioned so many times already that she IS and ANGEL. Whenever she comes online she starts with januuuuuuuu… and after I don’t respond instantly it turns into januuuuuuuuu??? I can practically see these question marks in her eyes, which by the way are very beautiful (the eyes, not question marks). And when I don’t respond after januuuuuuuu with question marks then where are you? comes and after that a lot of waaaaaaaaaaaing. So our chats are usually full with waaaaaaing.

She is the only one who still hasn’t given up on teaching me Hindi. No, don’t expect me to TALK Hindi or even to UNDERSTAND it. But I can curse :D

She calls me names. Maybe only Sami calls me more names than her. But okay, I am not that sweet. I call them names too. They are big dumbis. But everyone knows it anyways.

She is one pure soul. When you meet such people, you don’t let them go ever. You stick to them, hold on to them, you handle them with utmost care and you love them. There are not many out there in these big worlds who are so special, so loving, so caring, so beautiful in all aspects.

I love this girl, she is my friend, my soulsister, my Preetu Sweetu - a Big Dumbi! That’s Preeti’s birthday tomorrow, on the 8th May. And I just want to let her know how much I love her.

"A human or an angel- I am not sure
With a gleaming soul and a heart so pure
Life has been never the same again
Since the day you are eating my brain.
Not just a friend to me your are
But a soul sister- the brightest star.
So very far yet so near
With you beside me I have nothing to fear.
Every happiness you deserve on earth
I want you near me in my every birth.
My prayers with you will remain always
You will be a winner in life’s every phase.
I love you as though your are my eyes
Every day to you my soul flies."

She wrote the poem for me on my birthday, I tried to write better but I couldn’t. I tried to find words to describe our friendship but I always came back to those words of her. I can’t say better so I dedicate that poem back to her.

Love you, sweetheart!
Have a very Happy Birthday!
May you live 10000000000000000 years filled with love and happiness!

PS: eat up all the cake alone and get fat, girl :P

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PARTY TIME

With this post I announce finally that big party that was mentioned few posts below and rescheduled from 22nd to 30th due to my hectic work schedule.
For those who does not know thats the party celebrating an awesome friendship which started more than a year ago and blossomed into something really beautiful :)

Here you all are invited to take part in celebration in our brand new Dumbi Gang - blog.
See you all there :)

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Of Friends, Parties and Gifts

Gems may be precious, but friends are priceless and the more we live the more we agree with it. And nothing can keep you apart from people you care about, because there is no distance too big between friends as love gives wings to the heart.

It has been almost the year since the great friendship was born. The friendship that marked the beginning of Dumbi Gang. And on the 22nd November we celebrate one year of totally girlie friendship: Sami, Div and Lena have got to know about each other’s existence at this very time one year ago. Miss Preeti joined us a bit later.



Here we are inviting you all to a big party that will take place on the 22nd this month (location will be given out later as it is top secret information). Of course since it is a birthday party gifts are a must. Like Richard Bach once said "Every gift from a friend is a wish for your happiness..." so if you want to wish for the happiness of the Dumbi Gang, you are welcome to do so by mailing the gifts to thedumbibloggers@gmail.com.

You can choose if you want to give your gift to a certain person you feel more connected to, to the whole gang of us, or to the friendship in general. Just lets have some fun here!! :)

More info on the coming party will be following… Stay with us till then… and later ;)





PS: Please consider reading my new story HERE. I really need some feedback :)

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Happy Birthday!

I have a friend
Who is perfect for me.
I have a friend
Who has honor degree
In loving and caring,
In comforting and sharing,
In staying close
When everyone goes.

I have a friend,
Who is there in my heart,
And even though
We are thousands miles apart,
She is still close
Which I hope she knows.

And I’ll hold her there
Sharing smiles and care,
Listening to her fears,
Drying up all her tears.

She is the one
I’ll always rely,
With her if we need
We will reach for the sky.
And if we have to,
We will get through the clouds,
Because this friendship is true
No questions, no doubts.

I have a friend
Who has faith in her heart,
Who gives me joys and smiles on her part.
Who is true and giving,
Who is happy, living
Her life at its best.
And I believe we are blessed
To find each other once,
To share the bond so special
Making the life much more beautiful.

Happy Birthday, Sami!
Love you lots, dumbi!!
:)

PS: posted after 12 as per IST because Divvi asked me to :D

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Heartprints. Revisited

I have been thinking lately what to write for Friendship Day since I already have written so much on this topic and just can't make my lazy mind add more to that right now. So i am asking for forgiveness by those who have read this one already but i couldnt help but repost this one which always have been one of my favourite posts on this topic :)

Some relationships can’t be defined because no definition will ever be enough for describing feelings and emotions these relationships bring into our lives. We might call it love or friendship but sometimes they are just so special that we are not able to find words.
Correct words.
Right words.
True words which would be able to justify what we feel.

Here I am trying to find these words for people I love a lot. The ones that mean a world to me, the second biggest one after my family. The ones I am honored to call FRIENDS.

I never accepted the concept of having many friends, just because I believe in only friendship when you can completely rely on a person and trust them, when you know that when things go wrong your friends will be there for you... even before you ask them.
And I was blessed with such people and I am proud to call them friends.

Sometimes in life, you come across someone who changes your life just by being part of it.

Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop.
Someone who makes you believe that things will be good in the end.
Someone who can understand all your troubles by just looking in your eyes.
Someone who can soothe your fears with a simple hug.
Someone who is there when you're down and the world seems dark and empty.

And no matter how many times you fight with them, and how much bad stuff happened between you. When you need them, they are there. Any time, any place, anywhere.

Just because they are FRIENDS.


And if you need to talk, they’ll listen.
If you feel lost, they’ll guide you.
If you’re feeling afraid, they’ll comfort you.
If you need to lean awhile, they’ll be just a hug away.
If you’re feeling unsure, they’ll be your strength and confidence.

And this strength I get from my friends got its realization in this PROMISE:

Through all the ups and downs,
From my smiles to my frowns

Here and now I promise
No matter what happens

I will always be there
Standing by YOU.

And I hope you know
This is true.

And in times of Happiness
You make me feel blessed.

And in time of Grief
I will give you Belief.

I’ll be there for you
When you are in need.

I will lend you a hand
So you don’t have to stand

Alone in the world
When you go out of curl.

Because we will go through
And I know we can do

As you are my friend,
Strong and brave till no end.

And here I promise
That no matter what happens
I’ll be there for you,

Any time
Any place
Anywhere.

Now,
Forever,
And always.

Dedicated to all my friends

"When it hurts to look back, and you're afraid to look ahead, you can look beside you and I always will be there and maybe I can't stop the downpour, but I will always, always join you for a walk in the rain."

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!

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My Sweet Little Sister

She is sweet. She is cute. She is lovely. She is loving. She makes me smile without much effort. She is funny even when she is sad. She cries too much. She is mad at times. And a big time silly.
She is there for me when I need it. She loves me even if I think I don’t deserve it.
She laughs with me, she cries with me. She asks me the dumbest questions ever. She shares the weirdest memories with me.
When I feel bad I know who to turn to. When I am lost I know who will guide me.
No matter how calm or stormy my life is I know she is there for me.
No matter what I do, good or bad, I know she plays along.
No matter what I say, she knows right away when something is wrong.
And she is always right. Always.
She sees me at my worst and at my best and she still loves me.
She might call at night just because she feels lonely.
She would even not talk when she is online, but just a simple “hi” would make up for this because I know she is there and she knows I am there too.
She would share everything with me, except chocolates and ice-creams.
She is the one who knows when I am smiling, even in the dark.
And she always knows when I am crying even when she does not see my tears.
She reaches for my hand and touches my heart. More than that, she lives there, tucked so close so there is no escape, and I know she wouldn’t wish to run away.

She is my younger sister.

So what if not by blood. Our roots might not say we are sisters but our hearts surely do.
And she is getting one year older and maybe even wiser and smarter and .. and… and… (which all is doubtful) but no way she will ever lose this child inside her. And that’s the best thing.

Love you, cutie pie.
May everything in your life happen the best way, the way you always wished for yourself.
Happy birthday!!

Umm.... and by the way.. her name is Div, Divvi or Divvu... I guess she has no idea herself :P
And she has a birthday tomorrow, but i thought of posting today :)

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Capturing Moments

If you had one shot, one opportunity

To seize everything you ever wanted - One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?
- Eminem, Lose yourself

If I look back at my life in the past few months I can be sure i have not let anything slip. Every moment, good or bad is captured and safely stored in my gmail account. And from all those moments there are many which i cherish the most because they were spent with people I love a lot.

We can discuss as often as we want to about "online" - friends but you can't really use this term for someone who had been with you through tough and happy times, who shared with you their problems and asked for advice, who cried with you, who laughed with you, who just stayed there saying nothing but you always knew if you need them they will be there. Just a call away.

And every moment of a wonderful friendship from its first step till today is carefully saved, stored and cherished. So what if it is only written on your screen as chats' history. These are minutes of your life, hours of happiness, months of understanding and toleration, a lifetime of friendship.

Here today I am posting abstracts of chats i have had with these angels of my life, who were sweet enough to give their permission to post it (as if i wouldnt have posted them without any permission :D)

And their names are Sami, Div and Preeti - in the order of me getting to know them.

me: dumbi you didnt make attachment
div: huh?
me: i have not got anything attached
div: i fwded whatever she sent me ...ok wait
lena u r dumb :P
did u see only the mail i sent to sami?
me: i am not
div: click on the one she sent
me: i cant click on the one she sent because you are dumb :P
for that you should have sent me the one she sent and not you
div: shut up
me: :P

div: sami is not online :O any idea as to y?
me: nahhh no idea :O
div: okie
i thot u might b knowing coz u r very smart
:P
me: even smart people cant read thoughts :D
div: and sometimes dumb ppl can :)
me: ohh really? then it is just luck!
div: some people are jealous
me: some people dont know what they are saying
div: like lena doesnt know what shez talking :P
me: like divvi has no idea about what lena is talking :P
div: hahaaha n vice-versa
me: naaaa lena is smart she knows divvi is talking dumb talks :P
div: n vice-versa :P
me: naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
div: yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa


Preeti: u knw janu
thr is 1 guy
no actualy at presnt 3 guys
no no 4 :P
me: maybe 5?
Preeti: MAY B
yes thr r :D
BUT othrs r not as imp as thm
u bsy
me: me thinking about your guys :P
why are they so important?
Preeti: wat?
i hvnt sd anything yet
o thy r my grttttttttt frenz
me: ok cool :P only 5 guys?
Preeti: no 6
me: ok, now tell me about all 6 :D
Preeti: hmm
me: hmm?? so much about 6 guys?
* she did tell about one guy only

me: are you mad?
div: :O
no :P
y did u ask :(
me: how do you know that you are not mad?
div: lol....i just know...coz i am smart :P
me: how do you know you are smart?
div: i just know :P
me: how do you know?
div: do u understand?
me: how do you know you are smart?
div: shut upppp
me: no, tell me, how?
div: u dumb lady
my teacher told me :P
me: how did your teacher know you are smart?
div: lena plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz :P
me: nooooooooooooooooooo
how did the teacher know?
div: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Same time - another window

me: are you mad?
Sameera: no u areeeee
me: how do you know you are not?
Sameera: cause i am not
me: how do you know?
Sameera: cause i knowwwwwwwwwww
me: how?how do you know you are not?
Sameera: *showing some weird picture*
me: and now you proved you are mad
Sameera: tat was ur pic
me: how do you know you are not mad?
Sameera: shutup
me: no, how do you know you are mot mad? maybe you are mad?
Sameera: grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr


Preeti: u knw janu
yes i knw u knw
me: what do i know?
Preeti: love is so strnge
me: it definitely is :)
but how did my saali come to this thought?
Preeti: hmmm
i knw i dont hv brains
but a heart
thats y
;)
me: awww... me is dumb, me didnt think about the heart :P
Preeti: coz u too dnt hv brains
:)
me: yaa we both are too dumb :P
Preeti: saali dumb-bums
me: lolz thats a new term :D
Preeti: YE YE
one day we will develop a whole new language
dumb-bumb language
me: i have no doubts! am working on it since ages :P
Preeti: thn who one of us will b d mother n d fathr of new laguage
me: umm.... cant the language have 2 aunties? :P
Preeti: thn wat abt d mothers?
me: it will be an orphan
* dont try to steal dumb-bumb language.. it is patented, copyrighted and what not.. it is ours :D

me: btw i have a long weekend
Sameera: how??
me: 3 days, we have a holiday
Sameera: not fair
me: huh!! it issssss
Sameera: me wants long weekend too
*crying*
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
me: lolzz you were off yday
Sameera: i TOOK leave
loss of payyy
me: not fairrrrrrrrrrrr
Sameera: me is bechari
me: bechari??
Sameera: han main bechari
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
me: i can make you laugh
Sameera: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
me: i learned a new word today
Sameera: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
muje chutti chahiye
sammu ko chutti chahiye
sammu kal kaam pe nahi jaana chahti
me: whats all this?
Sameera: find out!
me: tumhe jana padega!!
Sameera: tu chup baith
tujhe to 3 din chutti jo mil gaya
me: ya ya main bahut khushi hu
Sameera: khushi nahi
khush!
khush is to be happy
me: whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Sameera: khushi is happiness
not wateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
me: main still bahut khush hu
Sameera: ya ya
chal ja
me: hum saare hi dumbis hai but tum sabse zyada ho
Sameera: tum hooooooooooooooooo
me: nahi
Sameera: main nahi!
main akalmand hun
me: tum and akalmand?????? tum galat ho
Sameera: tum chup baitho
me: huh!! tu chup baith
Sameera: tu ja
me: ghas khao
Sameera: tum ghas khao
tangdi kabab
me: lolzzz
Sameera: kya?
me: aise hi
Sameera: ya ya
*you think i know hindi... thats misconception :D I dont...

And here is the wish i have got from Divvi once but now dedicate to all three of them :)

When I look at you, I cannot deny there is God,
cause only God could have created some one
as wonderful and beautiful as you
No shadows to depress you,
Only joys to surround you.
Many friends to love you.
God himself to bless you.
These are my wishes for you,
For today, tommorrow & everyday

*pic's credit goes to Sami :)

Love you girls! :)

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And you wont look at the world the same anymore

First of all, sorry to all of you who kept on checking for updates on this blog and didnt find anything. Neither have i read any of the blogs lately except of those who asked about my opinion on some post or very close friends. I know you will understand :) I also didnt feel this passion and wish to write. Neither a blog, nor stories. The latest thing i have written was this poem. Not that it is good. I never have been good with poetry, feeling more comfortable to write stories. And well I have written a story for Sami's contest which is going on here. Those who have forgotten to participate still have their chance :)

But today i feel this wish to write about someone whose friendship i cherish and almost lost in the last couple of days.

This guy scrapped me over a year ago, few days before my birthday back in 2007. Orkut didnt have that much privacy at that time and everyone could scrap anyone without this "you are not allowed to write in this scrapbook".

I had that pic as display picture (might be some different pic though but i remember this one) and the first words i have ever heard/read from that guy were "Is the cat sleeping or not?"


I replied. And we started talking. Every day. First about some philosophical matters. He could and still can very easily change every matter into philosophical discussion which is never boring. Then we talked about music. I am not that big a fan. I have few songs in my collections that i really like but he made my collection grow big by advising really good stuff. Thanks to him i opened "Hinder" for myself and since that there is no day without me listening to their songs.

I remember one of conversations we had. And they all were in Orkut because i refused to add him on yahoo or gtalk (i had that dumb rule not to add strangers before i know them and when he first asked i refused and then he never asked again). So now i remember one which lasted for a couple of hours and consisted only of quotes from songs. The whole conversation. Two hours. And only songs' lyrics. Of course i cheated and used google. I know he didnt.

Days, weeks, months. We grew closer, talked about things that i didnt discuss with anyone else. Meanwhile he was done with his studies and moved to Chennai from Mumbai joining some company. Of course we already added each other on all messengers but still we mostly used orkut for communication since it added a lot to its privacy. More than half of my scraps are from him I believe. And all the special numbers like 11111, 22222, 10000 and many more like 25425 were written by him. There is a lot of fun in hunting for them, and i remember how many times i cheated just to get some of them written by deleting the oldest ones. It might sound childish but thats how it goes and i like it.

Orkut has become a main medium also because he cant use any messengers in the office but found a way around blocked orkut. And every single day except weekends i spent chatting with him about each and everything starting from weather and ending with some serious discussions about private matters. He knows me better than i know myself and can predict me in everything. He knows what i will say, what i will do, how i will react. Sometimes it is scary. Mostly it feels good.

Thanks to him i met some really good people. Even meeting Sami has to do with him too, righ, dear? :)

Of course, it all was not that good all the time. With him i fight more than with anyone else. About silly matters, about serious ones. About life, about me, about him. Sometimes i feel over-possessive about him, because he is just too good to share with anyone else. (Dont take it wrong, please)

He was and still is my strength. If everything falls apart i know where to go and whom to ask for emotional support. He might be harsh with me but he is always right and it always helps.
I hurt him. He hurt me. It happened every now and then like in every relationship but we always came back to each other because thats the way it should be. I was the very first person he ever wrote a testimonial in Orkut. And i cherish these words till now because they were straight from the heart and really mean a lot to me:

well well well...i think this is the first testimonial...um gonna write for anyone...Lena, Lena, aaah Lena...well i ve'nt met her yet or ever seen her...But as far as knowing her as a person is concerned, i know her inside out...Hey ,i think the legacies that people ve forgotten in these modern times are still there safe in some people of the world...Be serious, humerous, tricky, taunting, genius or anything, u got a companion for that state...the only promise ya ve to make is being true n straight...Talk about life or missing 9999, here's a friend that ORKUT has given me...when no one is there, i knw whom to rely on...God Bless n take care

He has taught me a lot of lessons in life, seems like he knows about it more than me. He explained it to me in another testimonial. And even though it might not make much sense to anyone else it made a lot of sense for me:

Testimonial of experience:-

Forget what ya dont ve
Forget that ya dont
Just Forget It
Forget that you're afraid
Forget that u r
Dont panic
Forget that u r alone
Everyone's Alone
Think about It

Its alright, I know tht it aint easy, But thats life

We're all in thr dark looking for the light
So dont ya worry....
Forget tht U cant Love
Forget tht U cant
Just forget it
Forget the reasons why
Forget the reasons
Can you do that
Forget that u r lost
Everyone gets lost in the Journey

Stop Take a look around you
Just stop maybe it'd be better'
If ya calm down
its alright...

This is ma lesson of life, i never explained anyone...took a lot of time ta put it in words...
And you wont look at the world the same anymore..

He is very talented. Not only in the poems he writes or in painting (where he really is a genius) but more in the art of friendship. He is and has been always a great friend, the kind everyone should have. The only thing i regret is that i still have not met him. And in the last couple of days i almost lost him, we have told lots of words to each other. I was more harsh than i usually am, but then i was hurt more than i usually am. And he refused talking to me which i accepted and we didnt talk to each other. Or rather he didnt talk and i tried to made him notice me. he kept on ignoring and it hurt more than anything else in the world. Imagine the broken heart because of someone who left you because they dont love you anymore. Now multiply it by 10 and you will get a broken heart of someone who is being ignored by the closest friend who (as they know) is feeling the same pain as you are. It is like having pain for both, you and the other person.

I have this ego problem. Thought if he does not want to talk i will not talk either. I have all the rights, dont i? But i just could not bear it anymore and tried my best to ignore my own pain and to concentrate on his. Forget my troubles and heal his own. After all he is one of the best person i have ever come across and he deserves better :) Not sure i succeeded. I tried my best though. Will try again because if not for friendship then to fight what for?


Once i have read somewhere "Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say". He knows what i dont say and he does not need to say anything because i know what he does not say. But today i felt like saying all this. Maybe also because i know blogger.com is banned in his office too and he will never get to read this :)

**UPDATE: Please dont tell me to break the silence, guys, it is all fine now :)

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Just A Click Away

People say the 21st century is a century of lonely people. It does not wonder anyone anymore because in the hectic world of today, trying to catch up with so many things makes us forget about the social nature of a human being.

We go to school striving for better marks to get a place in a better university. Once we are done we leave school and most of people there behind. Different paths...

We go to college struggling with assignments and again striving for good marks and appreciation to get a place in a better company. Once we are done we leave college and most of people there behind. Different paths...

We go each and every day to office struggling hard for a better place here, making a career, having no sleep, no food, no social contacts except the ones in the work place. We say sorry to the few of our school friends who are still there because we can not find time for them. Or they say sorry because they can not find time for us.

We are so much behind in all kinds of social activity because we are busy all the time trying to find our place in life.

Going out with friends? Err... when was it?

Party? Only every once in a while.

Shopping? Even not every weekend.

List is really long and quite the same for everyone.

No wonder that the most often performed activity in a free time (when you get a free time) is sleeping. But only because we wouldnt be able to survive without it.

And in the 21st century a new meaning is given to new communication means, internet in the first place. It happens more and more often that many of us consider as best friends people they have never met. People that live in the different parts of your own country and sometimes even outside of it. People that are just a click away.

They are there for you always, they respond to your mails quickly, they give advice when needed, they give you hugs and kisses that seem to be more real that the ones you miss to get from people you used to call friends for many years of your life. Their biggest advantage is that they are THERE. And you share with them things that you cant share with anyone else, you talk your heart out, you cry with them, laugh with them, you have fun, you have fights. Just everything you used to do with that friend who lives next door to you but now so busy that can not find time to give a call.

They are friends. And nobody wonders when you say you have never met your best friend in person. Nobody judges when you say you love them more than people around you. Nobody is amazed that you devote such amount of "free" and "not so free" time to them. Because almost everyone has such a friend and knows how it feels.

But friendship is not the only thing we seek as human beings. We long for love and romance. But how is it possible when you leave home at 8 am and get back at 9 pm with the only thought - just to get rest. And it is not like there is a huge queue of fans waiting at your door and wanting to propose you. Lucky are those who meet their soulmates at college or in the office. What about the rest of us?

And people have found the answer. Internet with the large number of social communities and dating services with instant messaging and what not gives you an opportunity to get to know people. And the one who yesterday was your best friend online is now more than just a friend. You are confused, worried, dont understand how it might have happened and what exactly you feel. Is it love? Infactuation? Something that should replace your own loneliness? But it feels damn real, doesnt it? You try to resist the feeling because the same people who said it is ok to have a best friend you have never met, now continue the sentence with .... "but you cant be in love with him/her if you never have seen them in real". And you keep thinking they have a point in this.

Where is the difference for you? Friendship.... and ... love... Two relationships so different and yet so similar. You dont know what to do, what to say, how to explain. But you are very much sure that what you feel is real. Then why to listen to what are others saying? I mean thats what you feel and even if it is a mistake, it is your mistake. What I truly believe that nothing is a mistake when it is about your feelings. If you feel it is real, then it is real because nobody except you knows how you feel and what is going on. They can guess, they can suppose but they can not know!

Why are we so quick to judge? When our friend tells us he/she is in love with someone they have never met why is our first reaction so negative? It scares them off, they are already confused about what they feel and now we add more to this. There are 6 billion people on this planet and why are you so sure that the one your friend fell for is not the right for him/her? Sometimes people wait for the perfect soulmate for the whole life and dont meet them. But here is your friend who might have got a chance and they are about to miss it because you dont believe in such things happen.

Thats all so much complicated and then it is very easy. Human feelings are difficult to be grasped, impossible to be explained. But if you feel thats the right thing to do, if you feel this warmth, this love, care.... why dont go for it? Maybe there wont be another chance? Or maybe this chance is exactly what you need for now :)

Because when so many are lonely it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone.

And that was another Tuesday Love Ramblings

PS: Inspiration to this post: my friend got to know his gf through internet. he is from Canada, she is from Brazil. After long months of communication through net he (despite all his friends and his family warning him it is not love and not real) moved out to Brazil. They got married and now are happy in love :)

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With a Power Vested within Me...

I guess it will be a long one and maybe a bit chaotic post as i am going to put many many many things into it. And i want to start with passing on some awards which i have received lately and was too lazy to present :D

I have received:

from Hope:

and from Sami:

So hereby with the power vested within me i hand it over to the following people.... (this line i have stolen from somewhere :D )

Creative Blogger Award: Akki, Preeti, Meghna, Arti Honrao

Best Friends Award: Div and Akki (love you girls :))

Now I also have been surprised by Nick

who declared me a Blogging Mentor. The whole meaning of this award you can read here from its creator. There you also can find the original images of the award as the one shown above is i guess Nick's creation. Still the main idea is giving appreciation to those bloggers who have made impact on you and guided you on the way to the better blogger. So now i am passing it on to Sami who has made me come back to blogging :) Keep rocking, sweetheart!!

I have got some more awards but will keep them for the next time ;)

Now to other points of the post. First, lets believe this template i have got is final. It has all i ever needed and i will try not to confuse my readers with changing a layout every now and then ;)

Secondly, I have launched a new blog. And of course you all are welcome

http://eachgoodday.blogspot.com/

And here finally the tag, actually i only intended to do the tag but then so many things came inbetween ;)

I have been tagged a lot lately. And today will do link tags. I was tagged by Ranjhani and Andrea for 2 different link tags.

Ranjhani asked me to list links of 5 favourite posts and Andrea asked to put a list of 5 links which are related to certain categories.

Here are the rules:

Go back through your archives and post the links to your five favorite blog posts that you’ve written. But there is a catch:

Link 1 must be about family
Link 2 must be about friends
Link 3 must be about yourself
Link 4 must be about something you love
Link 5 can be anything you choose

Post your five links and then tag five other people. At least TWO of the people you tag must be newer acquaintances so that you get to know each other better.
Readers - don’t forget to read the archive posts and leave comments!

So I combined 2 tags and here i go:

• About Family: as you have noticed though it is a personal blog i dont add much of personal stuff here, but i went through archives over and over again and i couldnt find anything.... I do love them but dont write about them. Maybe one day i will :)

• About Friends:
  
  Heartprints

  And here I promise
  That no matter what happens
  I’ll be there for you,
  Any time
  Any place
  Anywhere
  Now,
  Forever,
  And always ... Read more

• About Myself
  
  If they don't have chocolate in heaven, I ain't going
  I cry when i watch sad movies.... and I cry when i watch happy ones.. I guess I am just too senti. Now please dont make me feel embarassed and please never mention this fact. ;) Read More...
  
  
• About something I love
  
  Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower
  Being silly when I want it.
  Saying things because I mean it.
  Crying when I feel it.
  Laughing when I feel funny.
  Loving people important to me.
  Saying the truth even though it might hurt.
  Going for things that might be bad in the end. Read More
  
  
• Just about anything - here i will choose 2 as i missed the first point about family ;)
  
  There is no Way to Happiness, Happiness is the Way - i guess my favourite :)
  
  Life would be different if...
  
  we had no sunrises to watch
  there were no rains for walking out
  there were no first snowfall each year
  there were no flowers to blossom .... Read More
  
  Because it was he; because it was me
  "And if I am pressed to say why I loved him, I feel it can only be explained by replying: "Because it was he; because it was me." ... Read More

Ufffff ... that was a tough task, but now i am done!!

And here is my turn to tag people which i am doing with great pleasure - Anoop, Div, Sami, Jackie and Shalini. You can pick up one of 2 tags or combine them. If you already have done it, please leave a link in comments, i am curious to read :)

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The Colors of Friendship

Being kids we always wanted the time go faster so that we could grow up and start doing things that all the adults do. Having fun when we want, staying up till late, eat all types of sweets and junk food, going out when we want and stay over night at friend's place. Now, when we are grown up, all we want sometimes is to go back in time to those happy moments when we werent stressed over dead lines, break ups, family problems. When we didnt have any responsibilities and the biggest worry was about the neighbour girl having a new doll and you not.

Now we dont want the time to go faster anymore, in fact sometimes we even want it to stop because we dont have enough of it. Work, family responsibilities, studies take all of it. How often we meet up with friends and talk to them other than online? How often you manage to go to a party on a week day? How often it happens that the only thing you want to do in the weekend is to SLEEP?? Because thats what your body needs - complete rest after all the stress of today's life.

And how often you heard from your friends, family members, aquaintances that they dont have time to read the latest books, to watch the latest movies, to have peaceful time with friends because they are BUSY.

But time goes on, it doesnt stop for us, and we miss on a lot of things because of being too busy to realize that it is our life which is passing by. And we are going somehow parallel to it, but not living, worrying about having little time for all the things we should complete. Trying to catch up with a lot of things but failing because there are always more important ones.

There is always this lack of time, and no matter how hard we try, we will never be able to complete everything in due time. Then why not take a break and look around? Find one minute to enjoy the sunrise, take 5 mins to make your friend smile... why not to take some peaceful time to enjoy a cup of coffee with your best friend, to watch a rainbow, to read a novel. Find time for things you love because once you may realize it is necessary it will be already too late.

Take one minute of your day to make your loved ones feel they are special. One can never be too busy to find time to say "I love you" to special people in your life: family, friends.... It hardly takes a minute of your time but the smile on their faces will make you feel it is worthwhile.

Now I want to thank people who took their precious time to pass on the awards to me in the last couple of weeks.

Akki
Ameya
Div
Mads
Preeti
Sami

Thank you all sooooooo much!! :)

Now the time has come to pass on some awards.

Here I am passing this award received from Sameera to the bloggers whom I have known for longer than the rest as they were here with me all the time giving their support, understanding, care and love: Akila, Ameya, Div, Preetilata and Shashi.

Next award I also received from Sameera, long long ago, recently Preeti awarded me with the same, so now i decided to pass it on as well :)


And I am passing it on to Akki, Ameya, Div, Hope, Nick, Mads, Kaylee, Shashi, Maverick, JJ, Zahid, Vands, Anoop, Neers, Raaji as you all being regular readers inspired me to writing with your comments :)

Now I want to pass on some new awards which i think my readers deserve as all of you are very special people indeed. Just dont go anywhere and wait till the end of the show ;)

All blogs on my blogroll are special ones - their authors are amazing people and they deserve the best in everything they do, so here is my small attempt of giving them something they deserve, hope you all will accept it and pass on to other special bloggers:


Next one is for people whose writings bring colours into our lives - the ones whose touch to blogging made this world more colourful and special - Sameera, Akila, Preetilata.


Keep bringing colours into our lives, girls :) Love you all sooooooooooooo much!!

Next one is for few more people. Reading their blogs makes me always feel good, thats what i am doing in the office instead of doing proper work :P


This one goes to Div, Mads, Vands, Ameya, Shashi, Zahid, Anoop, JJ, Shalini, Nick as well as Sami, Akki and Preeti! :)

Here is one more which I want to give to some really cute, sweet, friendly people I have met out there in Bloggerville:

Neeraja, Kaylee, Hope, Curryegg.

And the last one for today. I love all my readers, I really do, but there are few whose comments make me smile, laugh, think, the ones that inspire me to no end. This award is for you -

Sami - dear, you know that you are the one who inspired me to being back to blogging after a long pause, thanks to you my writings improved, and even though i know sometimes you just say it was a great post when it really wasnt, it still makes me believe it was a good one :)

Div - sweetu, you are a great friend and even though you think you dont inspire me, you should know that you really do. Thanks to you i always try to add some nonsence into myposts, some humour and for you am also trying to stay serious to maintain some balance.

Akki and Ameya - girls, you have always been so sweet and nice, and your comments were always better than my posts, so i had nothing more to do than just to write better and better!! Everything for you. Love you both!! :)

Shashi - OMG, you are truly a master of comments, you complain you cant find words matching the post but the truth is you always do it so much great that makes me wait for your next comment very impatiently :D Thank you so much for finding my posts worth reading! :)

JJ - I know you less than the previous bloggers I mentioned but you always say you find something in my posts that is beyond my age.. hey, i am not that wise, not at all, but hearing this from you is always a great honour!!

Thank you to all of you for being there in my life and for appreciating me the way only you can do! :)

And feel free to pass on the awards to everyone you think deserve them.

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Heartprints

Some relationships can’t be defined because no definition will ever be enough for describing feelings and emotions these relationships bring into our lives. We might call it love or friendship but sometimes they are just so special that we are not able to find words.
Correct words.
Right words.
True words which would be able to justify what we feel.

Here I am trying to find these words for people I love a lot. The ones that mean a world to me, the second biggest one after my family. The ones I am honored to call FRIENDS.

I never accepted the concept of having many friends, just because I believe in only friendship when you can completely rely on a person and trust them, when you know that when things go wrong your friends will be there for you... even before you ask them.
And I was blessed with such people and I am proud to call them friends.

Sometimes in life, you come across someone who changes your life just by being part of it.

Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop.
Someone who makes you believe that things will be good in the end.
Someone who can understand all your troubles by just looking in your eyes.
Someone who can soothe your fears with a simple hug.
Someone who is there when you're down and the world seems dark and empty.

And no matter how many times you fight with them, and how much bad stuff happened between you. When you need them, they are there. Any time, any place, anywhere.

Just because they are FRIENDS.

And if you need to talk, they’ll listen.
If you feel lost, they’ll guide you.
If you’re feeling afraid, they’ll comfort you.
If you need to lean awhile, they’ll be just a hug away.
If you’re feeling unsure, they’ll be your strength and confidence.

And this strength I get from my friends got its realization in this PROMISE:

Through all the ups and downs,
From my smiles to my frowns

Here and now I promise
No matter what happens

I will always be there
Standing by YOU.

And I hope you know
This is true.

And in times of Happiness
You make me feel blessed.

And in time of Grief
I will give you Belief.

I’ll be there for you
When you are in need.

I will lend you a hand
So you don’t have to stand

Alone in the world
When you go out of curl.

Because we will go through
And I know we can do

As you are my friend,
Strong and brave till no end.

And here I promise
That no matter what happens
I’ll be there for you,

Any time
Any place
Anywhere.

Now,
Forever,
And always.

Dedicated to all my friends

"When it hurts to look back, and you're afraid to look ahead, you can look beside you and I always will be there and maybe I can't stop the downpour, but I will always, always join you for a walk in the rain."

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Propi-how??? there is no such word!

Well...now here goes some update about life and how it is. And it is finally good :) Well, it always has been that good but then tomorrow is last working day and finally holidays. That was the first good news, the second is that i have got some really great salary raise which i think is only fair for all the efforts i have taken: sleepless nights, overstress and what not.

These days are quite lazy in the office as i managed to reschedule my project till the next year, so only doing some routine work. Evenings are also lazy at home, watching movies or getting some sleep. Or also chatting a bit, or lets say a little bit more than just a bit :D

The last few evenings have been quite a torture though as well as a lot of fun. My dearest blogger queen Div who announced her retirement from the world of blogging some time ago (how did she dare only?? ) was studying for GRE. For those of you who are as ignorant as me (i am sure there is only 1% of people like that) who have no idea what GRE is I will tell you............ not. Find out ;) Google it :P

But now lets start with a torture. Being on chat the day before yesterday or maybe it even was the day before that day out of nothing i got the message on gtalk from this mad person. Not that it was something unusual to get a message from Div. But just not every day someone asks me what "decrepit" means. So being naive as i am I decided that girl got in some trouble (which is highly possible btw) and looked the word up in the dictionary. That was my biggest mistake. .. She just didnt stop after that. So here you can read some fragments of our chats from the last couple of days.

divs: now tell me decrepit-wat is it?
me: old, out of use or even broken down :)
divs: u knew it or u used dictionary :P
me: of course i used the dictionary! my vocabulary is so grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :D
divs: yeyeyeyeyeyeye :D
me: happy, nah? :P
divs: veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy happyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

divs: lenu wat is concord...though i know wat it is :P
me: depends on context i guess but mainly something like agreement
divs: yeah
divs: sami says concord is a plane :P
me: and she is right :P
divs: :O
me: there is even a car concord :P
divs: oh god
me: yes there were planes concord, they were very fast
divs: but do u think in my gre they wud ask me the names of cars n planes?
me: lolz you can never know!
divs: :P they wudnt

me: do you also have a dictionary?
divs: i hav it all in my mind, my mind is a dictionary

divs: insouciant?
me: inso-what????
divs: hahahahaha ur an idiot
divs: insousiant=carefree, huh

divs: pillory?
me: it doesnt have to do anything with pillow??
divs: idiot

divs: canyon?
me: i know this word! it is the same in russian :D but actually it is just canyon :P
divs: now will u tell me wat is means? :D
me: as if you dont know!
divs: canyon=chasm :P
me: is it?
divs: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
me: ohh... really it is..dictionary says the same :P
divs: hahahahahaahah
love u
:)
ur soooo sweeeeet

divs: unctuous
me: you sure this word exist?
divs: lolz
me: oily? :P
divs: yep wer did u find?
me: my brains told me :P
divs: lolz :D u hav brains :O
me: sometimes :P

divs: propitiated
me: propi-how??? there is no such word!
divs: :D lolz appease anger :P
me: i swear you invented it just now :P
divs: lolz idiot :x

divs: trenchant
me: incisive
divs: hmmm incisive ok...but forceful
me: who told you?
divs: lolz this isnt fair, my words list told me :D
me: lolz then it lied

divs: disawowal
disavowal*
me: wowowowowal ??? :P
divs: lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz :D lenaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa:D ur such a sweetheart
me: really? :P
divs: hahaha
me: it is denial, right?
divs: yeah

divs: dilapidate
me: too long!
divs: :P decay
me: is it a new words or definition of the dil-something-thing?
divs: huhuhuhuhuhuh :D
me: oohh i guess they are synonyms, no wonder i dont like both :P
divs: hahahahah

I will not wonder if after reading this you will think I am an idiot, even Div thinks so :D

But then what are these words for? I have never used them, will never use them and still can very much communicate. Are they for exams then? But I am proud to have a friend who not only knows that they exist but even knows the meanings ;)

Kudos to Div, who still remains my Blogger Queen, even though not blogging anymore!! :) :)

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Find Me Guilty

Bloggerville is a special place with all its population, small worlds, communities. It is a model of a real life. We live here, share our feelings, emotions. We feel happy for each other, we cry together. We support, we comfort, we make friends, we live.... We fight... The small version of society with its own rules, its own problems, its own values. Not much difference.

Freedom of choice, freedom of word.. i can say whatever i wish, it is my place, right? No matter how wrong i might be i can tell you anything here, who cares? i can say 2+2=5 and nobody will judge me. I can tell that i hate Tom Cruise and people will tell me - your right. But up to which limits these are my rights? What can I tell you and what not?

It turns out we can say everything.

Hate - it is here!

Insults - no problems!

Discussing in public your fight with she-was-once-my-friend - Cool, why not?

What about moral aspect, people? Dont you think if it is an anonymous thing and we most probably will never meet each other we got the rights to act like no moral issues exist? Didnt your parents teach you what is right and what is wrong? Didnt you know before that saying insulting things about someone you dont know and who has not done anything bad to you ever is bad??

So much for the society where morality isn't respected anymore.

Once you signed up for blog you knew it is public, didnt you? You knew people will come and read your stuff. So why act now like everyone who doesnt leave comments is stalking you or spying on you. Come on, if i drop by someone's place and just read - does it make me a stalker? Wowwwwwwww, then 90% of us are stalkers. I read many blogs, comment on few, sometimes i drop by one and the same blog several times before i write a comment for the post. Sometimes i am sure i left a comment but then it turns out i didnt. Huh!! I am the biggest stalker. When i read a post where i cant say anything to the author i dont comment, because i prefer to be honest and sincere. If it is a crime, then find me guilty. If someone puts my name in his/her blog in negative context I believe i have all rights to read it. Am I wrong? Nooooooo, not wrong, just a stalker, I guess thats worse, nahh??

People have misunderstandings, always had and always will have. Making them public, shouting loud that this blog is fake and that one is pretending too is really a great deal... and when someone who does this teaches me being tolerant, i am left speechless. I was taught to be loyal to my friends and if i see that someone is being unfair or doing things wrong i think i have all rights not to have this person in my life (read: my blog) and stand up for someone i love and care about. And someone feels sorry for me because of it? Someone who is not able to keep her own life on track feels sorry for me? oh.. no comments, will try not to become too personal. But i am not all that loving and sweet. Once people bite me i bite back and i believe i have all rights for that.

Blogs are a personal space, nobody can tell you what to write and what not. And it is not our business to advice someone. But what about common sense?? And what about commenters, who have no idea of what had happened but keep giving comments as if they know, supporting the one side but then going to another blog and supporting it too without even knowing thats exactly that "bad" guy they read in the previous blog about. It is all so much anonymous, we dont know much about each other, we only are here to share out thoughts, opinions, feelings. From where this need of judging is coming?

Would you do the same if it was not in Bloggerville, would you ask for the crowd to come and announce that this your ex-friend is such a ***** (sorry, am to nice to use any cursing). Will you keep insulting and force this person not to use the same streets as you do? Would you involve people who have nothing to do with it? Want to know the answer? You wouldnt...nobody would. Because real society has this moral assets.... Bloggerville does not. Here it is only up to you how to react. But it is exactly here that people can see the REAL you, no matter how anonymous. Why dont we think about it next time when we want to write about hate, when we want to judge someone, when we want to show that we are better.. because ... are we REALLY better?

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