As we grow up things change

As we grow up things change. Life was so much easier back then when scrapes from the bike ride were the worst pain, the worst fight you had was about who would have remote control. Life was so much easier when goodbyes meant “I’ll see you tomorrow” and when no one was afraid to say “I love you”.

As we grow up things change. Or maybe we do. Fading away, drifting with the flow, losing ourselves. Forgetting childhood dreams and old promises. Getting lost in the whirlpool of fake priorities and artificial emotions. We do things because we are supposed to do them. Because someone said so. Because everyone does this. We forget who we are and what we want. We are too scared to follow our own dreams.

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I've Grown Up

When you grow up, you stop dreaming... the child inside you turns into someone you dont know and even not sure if you want to know...

And as the child disappears giving place to another you, your dreams disappear with that cheerful bubbly happy kid...
Some people never let that child go and keep their dreams safe for the rest of their lives...
Some give up on their dreams and grow up accepting the reality.

Don't tell me giving up is easier. For me that's the toughest thing you can ever do. To leave something you love. To let go of the part of you. To accept that some things weren't meant to be.

To grow up.

It does not mean you don't have dreams anymore. It only means you dream on a safer side.
I am a dreamer... But I have grown up. I could say that sucks, but I will say life goes on.

On a brighter note... maybe I haven't grown up.. maybe my child just fell asleep.




PS: I am here and I am fine. Will be back to blogging and bloghopping once I am done with my issues :) Till then, hope things will go great for everyone!

PPS: Tuesday Love Ramblings are on break... till the kid in me wakes up again :)

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Thinking

Today I was looking for something in my blog. I knew exactly where to find that poem i needed to refer to but somehow it took me more time because i stuck at some of my old posts rereading them and wondering if i still think the same way or changed.

We all change throughout life, getting new experiences, making new mistakes, being influenced by new people. And as a result the way we think changes and things that i said few months ago might differ from the ones i would say now.

But there are some things that will stay the same because they determine who we are and what we are worth. Weird thought but it is true in a way... I know i changed in the last year because things have happened that werent supposed to happen, people have gone that were supposed to stay, people have come who were not expected to be there but altogether everything that happened for a reason, it made me stronger, it made me wiser, it made me different.... and it even made me think different, i made me take the reality different, but in the most important matters like friendship, family, life approach it is still the same.

It is really weird... I changed but the way i think about life has not and the way i would react and comment on some points is still the same. And in fact i do not know what it means....
I only know that i like it.
Maybe it sounds weird but then i think that it might be the reflection of my sick (still not feeling well) mind.... :)

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Do you have the life you wanted??

It's amazing because, when you're a kid you see the life you want and it never crosses your mind that it isn't gonna turn out that way.

Just a weird thought of mine, I have lots of them :) - i mean thoughts .. and some are WEIRD!!!

As children we see our future just perfectly and know exactly what we will do, how we will do this, why we will do and with whom we would like to do this. And even if we realize that it will be difficult (mostly we sure dont realize ;)) we truly believe nothing is impossible.

And even when we grow up the thought of this "Nothing is impossible" is stuck inside our heads and we keep repeating it for some motivational purposes though even the people with most positive attitude know it is not like that :)

But somehow the thought of this "everything is possible" is very nice to our minds and our hearts. I am the one who believes "Nothing is impossible", may be because i have more of a child in me still than necessary, may be because i still believe that life can turn out the way i have seen it in my childhood (can i say foreseen???)

But back to the original thought.. how many of us remember our kid's dreams and pictures of "adult" life? and how many can say that what they have dreamt 20 years ago (OMG!!! cant believe i was able to have dreams 20 years ago - seems like an eternity back in time) has come true or that they still want it to come true??

Thats so easy for children, for us as children: you just KNOW that one day it happens, but then when it DOESNT happen, you arent disappointed as you are not a child anymore and dont expect this to happen.

I dont know if i could express what I meant, thats kind of dificult, but you know what??? I told in the beginning - it was a weird thought!! ;)

The main idea is - do we have the life we wanted as children and if the answer is 'NO' .... then Are we disappointed about it??? and would we have been disappointed then 20 years back if we knew we would never have life we want?

I know we want different things from life at the every stage of our presence here - and thats silly to suppose that life we wanted as children is the same as life we want as adults... but if we drop some details and concentrate on the big things only.. considering how wise children are - isnt it the best we want for us as children and which rarely comes true because while growing up we lose something important, something we hardly will be able to find, that part of our soul that just KNOWS "Nothing is impossible" :)

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